#if u cant tell . i am entranced with coming to terms with being trans

[dykeyote]

umm,,,,could i maybe request some transfem juniper n joshua hcs,,, :)

YOU SOOOOOOO CAN BECAUSE THATS SO BASED . i enjoy that basically the only curious anons ive gotten are just asking me to transgenderize people bx that is my fav hobby

JUNIPER

SO!!!!! i hc her as transfem nonbinary with she/they prns >:) she has xenogenders too but theyre all chosen EXCLUSIVELY based on the design of the flag she doesnt even know what half of them mean she just thinks thye look cool . she has a little doc with all her xenogender flags in it and the union jack is on there and everyone THINKS theyr joking but lowkey its not entirely clear . she uses any neos i think the only prns theyr not okay with is he/him

i stand by that shes in a qpr with jedidiah . anyway i think they have a similar build and an adjacent gender presentation so they swap clothes sometimes . juniper is a lot FANCIER but they do look good in some of the same colors so juniper usually just spruces the ones she gets from jedidiah up a bit . she “generously” offers jeddy her dress with the union jack emblazoned all over it and hes like …… no its ok thank u 

juniper is VERY much not out at home i think i get the vibe that she hides a LOT from her dad and i think that being trans would Definitely fall under that . its part of why she really enjoys going to camp and spending time with rowan because she can be out there and be more comfortable with the way she presents

i think shes Known that shes trans for a whle but its something shes closeted about for the above reasons shes Very Avoidant so shes like . i can just push that down forever and ever and never transition and it wont be an issue <3 cheers! but being so close to rowan kind of opens her up to the idea more and makes it so they can kind of realize that . yes it will be hard . but she deserves that joy in her life . which is good for her i think shes a lot happier and less stressed

JOSHUA

JOSHUA!!!! i hc as transfem nonbinary theyre a they/them girl. an alpha female if you will . theyre DEEPLY DEEPLY DEEPLY IN THE CLOSET THOUGH theyre more repressed than JEDIDIAH which says smt . i think part of the whole alpha male manosphere thing is a way of avoiding coming to terms with being trans its about a lot of things but thats one of them . the vibes ive always gotten from them is that their family is pretty shitty and gave them a lot of insecurities and hangups about masculinity so i think thats lead to a LOT of internalized transphobia 

BUT!!!!! THEY WORK IT OUT!!!!!!! being friends with yvonne sort of opens them up to the idea more and they slowly leave that whole alpha male mindset which leaves them more open to try out new things including experimenting with their gender which they find really nice

i think they like to present as like . a Masculine Girl . like they dress the same way but they grow their hair out and go on e and start voice training . they do wear more fen clothes SOMETIMES like for special occasions they like to wear fancy dresses and shit . but i think largely the way they dress stays the same it doesnt change in the way it does for jedidiah and juniper . its just their physical features that they adjust 

i think them and yvonne bond a lot over being trans they were already really close friends . but joshua coming out gives them another thing to bond over and brings them even closer which is really nice for them (: it also helps joshua chill out a bit because expressing yourself is relaxing so their dynamic is a lot easier and calm 

#joshua macheath #juniper sloan #camp here and there #I LOOOOVE HCS THESE ARE FUN #if u cant tell . i am entranced with coming to terms with being trans #as an allegory for self acceptance #rougecanons

[gayphichit]

@ai-ni-tsu-i-te replied to your post “i lovvveee that art seeing victuuri in trans colors makes me weep”

Do you have any thoughts on trans viktor that you'd share if u were asked coz if so consider this an official asking

buddy my friend i ONLY have thoughts abt trans viktor. my person trans man viktor life story is as follows (lil bit of dysphoria talk maybe tw):

-prefacing this by saying i know NOTHING abt figure skating but yoi land of no homophobia means im taking an artistic license with how competitions would work and everything. 

-there are little things when hes a child that point to him being a boy, but its overshadowed by the fact that his life is figure skating. it isnt until puberty, and he realizes that there is something wrong that he needs to come to terms with. its takes a couple years of thinking and talking and having breakdowns but when he finally realizes it its very clear to him what the problem is. hes a boy but no one else knows

-viktors lesbian moms are of course very supportive of him. honestly the one thing that really stops him from being able to reconcile himself with being trans is his future career in figure skating. by 14 he obviously knows that figure skating, and being the BEST figure skater, is what he wants. he does not want to do anything to intentionally get in the way of that. he even considers holding off his transition until he retires thinking, “it isnt THAT long, ill have my career and then i can be who i am.” he very quickly releases that is no way to live and its the support of his moms that helps him realize that there is no reason to sacrifice who you are, for a career or anything else

-viktor comes out to the media and starts hormones the year before the lilac fairy/eros costume. its his last year in juniors and his first year in the mens division. everyone is expecting a big change for his programs. will he cut his hair? will he stop wearing skirts? will he be able to keep up in a different environment? the answers are no, no, and yes. viktor’s entire thing is surprises and that is what he does: he shows up with his signature long hair in a ponytail, unharmed, and a half skirt that in his own words calls upon femininity and masculinity. and he fucking dominates the competition.

-you obviously cant bind while skating so top surgery is definitely a priority. he has it done before his entrance into seniors division. tbh i dont know if top would keep you off the ice for more than off season (or even what off season is in skating) maybe he takes off a year? could he do that? would viktor do that? i dont think he would if he had a choice.

-he keeps his long hair for years after hes in seniors. he prides himself on both his appearance and his ability to surprise people and his hair does that. he LIKES having long hair. his gender shouldnt determine how he wears his hair. (QUICK SIDE NOTE: victor’s well documented fear of a thinning hairline??? STEREOTYPICAL TRANS GUY FEAR RIGHT THERE. that + his suits just hits me in the head as trans viktor evidence)

-i dont know if his eventual cutting of his hair is to do with his transness at all, especially since we dont know the age he does it. i assume it followed by some emotional ordeal tho considering do weird shit to your hair after a breakdown is gay culture across the board

-on the topic of being a public figure, theres a definite level of paranoia of being trans and that knowledge being available to everyone with a search engine. even in a world without rampant transphobia, there is a level of “is this person treating me different bc im trans? do they even know? should i tell them?” esp with potential romantic partners 

-i really dont think viktor has had much of a romantic past, bc of this and just general no time whatsoever. it isnt that he doesnt WANT it, bc hes such a romantic soul. its really really hard to date when youre trans, and id argue even harder when youre especially romantic and looking for someone to really love and be loved by. it took victor 27 years

-meeting yuuri is a curse and a blessing all at once in regard to fear of judgement for being trans. victor at least knows that yuuri knows, since hes a skater only a few years younger, so he doesnt have to worry about that, but theres still the question of “will he treat differently than he would have otherwise?”

-this is one reason that “i want you to stay who you are, viktor” on the beach is sooo vital to their relationship. being trans is so performative, and as a celebrity there’s so many other aspects of his life that are as well, and having yuuri say “i want you to be you” is a incomparable weight off his shoulders. its very easy to fall in love with yuuri after that. 

#ai-ni-tsu-i-te #THIS IS A LOT BUT TO BE FAIR YOU ASKED #i looked and i havent really talked abt trans victor before which is a serious misstep on my part #replies #trans vi is important to me bc of how closely i identify with him overall #also nonbinary and genderfluid etc viktor interpretations are legit and i undeniably am very drawn to nb victor and yuuri i just chose to ta #lk abt trans man victor bc thats what i have experience with ya know #pac.txt #i probably should of put this under a cut but i want ppl to read it so im being annoying bye