#if there's one thing i've learned from having emetophobia my entire life it's that overanalyzing everything you and others

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officially covid negative!!

#win rambles #that experience was godawful and not because of the actual covid symptoms but bc of my ocd #and it made me realize how many people are developing ocd and other anxiety disorders for themselves with this pandemic #the way everyone is assigning morality to covid is honestly disgusting #i had some of the worst intrusive thoughts i have ever had in my LIFE due to the attitudes of people about covid that i see online #and it also made me realize that i need to really limit my time on the internet #i really do think everyone on this site (and the internet in general tbh) just hates people with ocd #anyway i'm over it now and covid is around and here to stay and i know it sucks but getting mad about it is literally not productive #some people are just REALLY pressed about things they ltierally can't control #which is yknow where anxiety and ocd stems from #it's much better to just. try your best to let it go #and live your life #i wanna make a more in depth post about this and all the thoughts i've had #but the truth is that there aren't protections or precautions being taken at large for covid anymore #and you can get really upset about it and live your life with debilitating anxiety or you can just. accept that it's here to stay #and make the choices you need to make to live with that #if there's one thing i've learned from having emetophobia my entire life it's that overanalyzing everything you and others #do in order to avoid getting sick is literally like. not a way to live. not a good way to live anyway #anyway this is funny that i'm writing this after the drama with my mask post that i deleted #but you know what. i've grown. i've learned. i've changed #i still hold to that original point but the thing is?? most people aren't masking anymore. and that sucks #but i literally cannot control what they do! so i'm not gonna give myself more anxiety stressing about it! #life is hard enough as it is