#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc. #so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously) #but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate. #and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic! #if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it. #like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is- #writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl- #will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of- #'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

[billys-lover]

Hi!!!!! Could I please get a ship?

I'm 18, I'm bi, I use she/her pronouns, I'm 5'3 and I'm pretty chubby, I'm black with dark skin and I have pastel pink locs right now but I like to dye my hair a lot!!!

I'm an infp and a Gemini sun, Libra moon, Gemini rising (with great decision making skills as you can imagine).

I have adhd and I tend to not speak until I'm spoken to, but once I start talking I don't stop easily lol. If I'm talking about something I'm especially interested in I can literally go on for hours at a time. I'm really into witchcraft, mythology, most cartoons, all of the twilight movies except new moon cause I don't like seeing ppl get sad, and languages, of which I'm currently learning seven (almost none of which are remotely useful lol) I especially love dead languages, rn I'm learning ancient Egyptian and Latin and I am ✨obsessed✨.

I'm a huge history nerd but I hate hearing about war and politics because they can be kinda triggering for me, i don't rlly like violence unless I know it's explicitly fake (so supernatural horror movies r usually good but if it seems to plausible I start to freak out lol). I'm incredibly sensitive but I think since I talk so much and overthink constantly I'm a lot more likely to just communicate with someone instead of arguing or fighting with them, (not that I can or would want to fight anyone I hate all physical activity so much lol) and I love love and being romanced but I have pretty bad trust issues

My favorite genre of music is probably hyperpop even though I listen to literally everything (one of my favorite songs is an Icelandic lullaby about the ghost of a child calling out to its mom) and I almost always have headphones on at 100% volume.

My receiving love languages are acts of service, gift giving, and quality time and my giving love languages are gift giving and quality time, I'll cry while watching anything even though I hate crying in front of people, and I love literally all animals (except centipedes, they scare me a lot) and would jump in front of a Mac truck for literally any stray cat, and I can and have walked into mildly unsafe areas for the sake of getting a better glimpse at some raccoons

!!! <3 <3 <3 thank you!!! I hope you're having a good day !!!

i had so much fun writing this?! i hope you enjoy it! also i’m so sorry i haven’t been very active this week:( i’m getting stuff written i promise! anyways, i ship you with…

SIDNEY PRESCOTT!

- i feel like this poor girl would drool over you 24/7

- please let her help you dye her hair.

- she's too scared to dye her own hair so she’d love to do your’s instead! 

- she can totally understand the whole not speaking unless spoken to thing 

- i have such a strong feeling that this girl is super duper shy so please don’t stop talking! maybe add her into the conversation too! - loves to hear you talk.

- please tell her about your day!?!

- sidney would love the twilight franchise. i know it.

- watch them with her!

- you watch cartoons too? name your favourites to her and you two will watch them all night.

- will sit there in absolute shock when you speak to her in a different language.

- she finds it beyond attractive.

- “where did you learn that, doll?”

- loves the fact that you dont quite do slasher films because of her past trauma... obviously.

- but if one day you decide to watch a slasher film that isn't too gory or doesn't show much violence then she’ll be willing to watch it with you as long as you're comfortable! 

- just please cuddle her. she needs it

- she promises she’ll cuddle you back!

- i’m convinced you would barely fight.

- you're both willing to talk about what's bothering you and unlike her ex billy, you wont scream (wink wink) and shout at her.

- would definitely take her a while to get into hyper pop but i feel like she’d quite enjoy it!

- loves when you give her gifts and will give you the cutest shit as a thank you.

- WILL GET YOU A CAT AS A GIFT!!!!!!

- and will kill centipedes for you even though she's quite scared of them herself

- what can i say! she loves you. 

#sidney prescott #sidney prescott x reader #sidney prescott smut #sidney prescott imagines #scream #Scream 1996 #scream gifs #scream imagine #scream x reader #neve campbell

[girltomboy]

1. at first i wondered if our connection was just random or if there was something deeper about it, but i decided not to overthink it but this was super cute and i def think (and very much hope) we have the potential to reach our best selves together

2. I! ALWAYS! SEEM! TO! CONFUSE! HIM! and he often calls me unpredictable and strange but that's on him! i actually am aware that sometimes i take him by surprise, sometimes i even surprise myself, but for the most part i'm pretty predictable, especially when it comes to usual, mundane, everyday stuff. on the occasions when i actually am unpredictable it's either firecracker reactions to being pissed off, or like... random spontaneous stuff for the fuck and the fun of it. pattern be on some real shit with "instead of being intrigued and appreciative" 😔 you right pattern i lack the appreciation i deserve

3. another hit: being together DOES feel incredible. he brings me comfort but at the same time gets me excited and brings out my child-like curiosity and energy - it's VERY rare that i want to be around someone for so long like i want to be with him, sometimes i can't get enough of his presence like that tweet said i wanna live in my bf's balls like a spermaid BRUH ppl be making fun of it but it rly be just like that. and i know he feels the same way cuz he's always even more excited to hang out than i am. there were times when he was texting me let's go out and i was like come OOONNNN i wanted to have the day to myself or some shit (obvs i never said that to him i always agreed to go out lmao what i wouldn't GIVE to hang out w him rn and do absolutely fuck all be bored the fuck out my fucking brains but TOGETHER 😭) and even if we did nothing we never had any plans or concrete destination it's always "adventure time" with him and we always end up having a good time just in each other's presence

4. WORD cuz i do be feeling more confident with him i feel comfortable to get out of my shell and it's such a rare feeling for me to be wanted and desired by someone the way he does it. and it's different cuz i know i was desired before, but his way of wanting and desiring is so subtle and gentle and respectful

5. IT DO BE LIKE THAT the first time i got mad at him was bc he did an important thing without me when i thought i had made it SUPER. CLEAR. to him that i wanted us to do it together. like, i had specifically restrained from it in order to do it with him and he just did it by himself. idk what kinda fucked up test that was. idk what he was hoping to accomplish with it. but it's true that i'm the equality driven one, my mars is in libra and his is in CAPRICORN and it fuckin shows.

6. idk what to say about this. i do hope it's not true, i wish he could tell me things. he never tells me shit, i have to pry it out of him and it makes me feel like shit tbh because i'm a private person and i respect other people's privacy as well but like when you're in a relationship it's sort of expected of you to share your struggles and your negative emotions. like you HAVE to let me carry some of that negativity on my own shoulders it's what we DO. and i joke around too much and maybe accidentally hurt him sometimes... hopefully it's not the case but it's just something i've noticed, that he tends to take my jokes to heart SOMETIMES and this is why i have to always include a disclaimer I'M JUST KIDDING BTW JUST JOKING AROUND JUST PLAYING. anyway... the last part kinda made me melt. reminded me of the quote from i forgot what book or something... i suppose you love me in your own way/ of course i love you in my own way, i don't know any other way. it's all just a matter of figuring out what is our "way" and accepting it as it is. deciphering it and receiving it without trying to mold it trying to make it fit into our own idea of loving.

7. oh boy this one made me LOL did we FUCKING meet in an unconventional way... i suppose the way we met per se wasn't exactly unconventional, we were just in the same group of friends, but the way we ended up being something more than just friends in the same group of friends was pretty out of the ordinary. so maybe it wasn't so random and out of the blue (lol... blue) after all! HUH

8. our connection really IS full of surprises. and i suppose it's true he doesn't get to express himself in his usual way around me - with others he tends to bend the truth just for entertainment. with me it doesn't work, not only because i won't take any of it and we've had several discussions on this topic, but also because i can always smell when he's being dishonest, and my seriousness completely kills the conversation. like you wanted lies for fun, now we not gonna talk about anything. now we not gonna have any kind of fun, not with lies nor with non-lies. here you go, the fun you ordered sir. what is it? OH no, it's fucking dead. you killed all the possible and existent fun by lying. i hope it was worth it. lmao. i'm not that dramatic. but i just go quiet and look at him a certain way and he changes the subject. Thx!

#anyway cool app. i didn't know they made it available on android too #my best friend loved it too more so than co star i hope #co star seriously fucked up my houses / house placements AND won't show aspects #and everything is so ominous and general like... no you are absolutely wrong #it's just v basic. maybe their daily stuff is accurate transit-wise but i highly doubt that