#idk. im very thankful for my onlime friends tho i love them all so much and love playing games with them

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im so much better at making friends in a voice chat only setting. i do not know how to have a physical body or form

#anyway. i love my online friends. #i am trying very much to make im person friends too but god itsits hard and god am i bad at it. #idk. there are so many stipulations and things thathat make it harder for me and they build up so Fast #1on1 is hard but too many people is equly difficult. #i find overly friendly people overwhelming and overstimulating bt also i tend to reflect the other persons energy so extraverted people #are easier than introverted in that sense. #i dont know. just feels bad. #ive veen using like. bumble bff and met up w someone today and it was just hard idk!! #they were very nice snd it wasnt bad but i was so so so anxious and i think they were too which i mirrored and felt even More anxious #and just. aaaa. idk. its just frustrating how hard it is for me. #its easier if i can have like. a buffer friend with me who i am super comfortable with #like i have to learn how to be a person every time i meet someone knew so if someone i know is already there it helps fast track it #but its so hard doing it. its so so hard. #idk. im very thankful for my onlime friends tho i love them all so much and love playing games with them #and im very thankful for them bc like its nice having friends who move with me bc theyve always been online #and also. it would also be nice to have more in person friends too. #idk. brain bad bad at being a person.