#idk man what if u fell in love with ur destruction ie that which killed you the first time

[dawnssummers]

— i never liked that ending either. more love streaming out the wrong way, and i don't want to be the kind that says the wrong way.

buffy the vampire slayer, 5.07 fool for love + 5.18 intervention + 5.22 the gift / richard siken, litany in which certain things are crossed out

#litany again. GUYS WHO WOULD LOVE LITANY IN WHICH CERTAIN THINGS ARE CROSSED OUT!!! #btvs #spike #btvsedit #no but litany is so. it's about being stuck in this narrative of doom/tragedy whilst trying to shape it from within but u Can't. you're you #it's about regret (especially that but i should've known) its about forgiving yrself (dear forgiveness quit milling about and come inside) #most of all it's about being the dragon and wanting to be the princess or the hero but you're not #and that's why you want a better story. WHO WOULDN'T? sure i sink the boat of love but that comes LATER #idk man what if u fell in love with ur destruction ie that which killed you the first time #what if you continued to life what if you were a vampire and there was a hero. what if u fell in love with ur destruction again #what if you were a fool for love even as you revelled in causing pain and causing destruction of your own #what IF you were trying to heal your lover but then the slayer was there. what if your lover pushed you away bc she knew your destiny #what if love for you was like a religion all along... litany makes me crazy wazy #^all why the expression RIGHT after 'til the end of the world' is in here i did oscillate on including it bc it Looks innocuous #so much converges there.. it's a grand statement And it's real And it's a (promise of) love through/bc of/despite the world ending