#idk im trying to make it lighthearted and a joke now that i’ve slowly recovered from crying over it all

[hystixia]

Sweetheart please don't think like that.

It's not gonna help if you keep denying your feelings. Thinking about suicide is DEFINITELY not the best thing.

I know the pain that your going through with your parents, and if you ever need a shoulder to cry on then you can talk to me (us, ur fans and mutuals).

It might be difficult, but you mustn't give up.

Keep applying for jobs and you will get one eventually. Maybe look for someone in need of a roommate? Or ask a friend to let you crash over for a few days to clear your head?

And maybe you should talk to a professional. Or create a burn book. Maybe go to a rage room and take out your anger? There are multiple possibilities doll, and suicide isn't one of them.

Stay strong!

I belive in you, you're doing great so far <3

All my love

- 🍯 Nonnie

this is what broke me like i just started crying and couldnt stop hhjskxkak okay okay im good im calm i promise

thank you for the kind words you’re the only one that said anything AKDKWOC and while i dont expect anyone (especially you guys) to react or check on me, it means a lot when someone goes out of their way to do it. so thank you for being so caring :,) unfortunately i dont know anyone (not anyone i could trust anyways) to crash with for a few days just to temporarily escape my problems and because of the tight leash my parents have on me BECAUSE im jobless and basically have to depend on them for everything, i’m unable to even find and keep a job because i dont have a car and they wouldn’t drive me (they literally told me “who’s going to drive you? we dont have time for it. stop being selfish.” LITERALLY said that to me and what did i do? i stayed quiet and took it and gave up.) i also couldnt just walk to work because every job thats hiring is roughly an hour drive away. which sucks. it’s just very inconvenient and i feel lost and helpless and it’s suffocating when i overthink like this because once i start it’s difficult to pull myself out of that hole. i literally have no one to turn to for help in any capacity, only myself and even i am getting tired of having to pick myself up and ignore things that no one else would put up with in my situation because its not okay to be treated like this but i know that if i defend myself and speak up for myself, i’ll also be fucking homeless because that’s the direction this is heading and im trying to stall and prevent it for as long as i can manage. basically im just stressed and i have nothing to do or turn to but suicidal thoughts unfortunately. it doesn’t help, it makes things worst and i gotta stop resorting to that mindset whenever things get to be too much for me. idk why i rambled/ranted sorry JDJFKSKLF

#! doll takes notes ! #! patient 🍯 nonnie ! #stay silly cadie stay silly #maybe if i drown myself with fics to write i’ll be too busy to be depressed methinks #idk im trying to make it lighthearted and a joke now that i’ve slowly recovered from crying over it all