#idk i need to release the thoights

[ducktollers]

ngl i think talking abt social anxiety and gender dysphoria to people who do not get social anxiety or gender dysphoria is the worst experience in the world maybe

#i love my friends so dearly but. #‘ok but have u tried to join anything’ i feel like im gonna die if someone so much as sits near me so no #hearing a friend talk abt her shy new roommate and me being like #‘ok she sounds just like me. so id advice u to not give up on Offering to include her even tho she keeps saying no’ #and friend being like Oh yeah i was planning on giving up #and me remembering all my lil breakdowns over the thought that ppl will give up on me and im not worth the effort it takes to befriend me #also talking abt top surgery and chest dysphoria to firends who just have no idea how to relate #and one googling top surgery and cringing at the scars n nipple grafts and internally im like Hmm somehow thts making me feel worse actually #x #idk i need to release the thoights