#idk i feel very very isolated and hopeless and am dissociating a lot about reality/society

[virtualmosshroom]

in a weird headspace

#just coming off my period so no surprise there but like #idk i feel very very isolated and hopeless and am dissociating a lot about reality/society #the downfall of twitter has fucked me up #i don’t know what i’m doing #i’m ill and receiving no support and it feels impossible to do anything more with my life than just surviving #there’s also a lot of r*** related content online and in media rn and it’s been a lot on my brain #i don’t have any hyperfixations rn so i’m just sitting here numb and waiting for something interesting to happen #living in poverty is so harmful to my physically disabled and AUDHD self #i want to go outside and laugh with friends in the sunshine #i want to be held and in love and support someone #i want to travel to japan and eat amazing food and shop #i want connection and meaning #but it all feels so impossible #/ #i was so convinced that i had absolutely blown that interview #and then i find out that it actually didn’t go as bad as i thought #i haven’t been outside and socialised in so long i think that’s why my brain shut down during the interview #i’m not really fit for work but i need and want to #i’ll find out in a couple days what the next four months of my life will look like #guess we’ll see