#idek anymore i give up

[roses-and-elixir]

You can do everything right and people still won’t appreciate you and find something to complain about

#im literally trying my best and its not enough 💔 #i just did a 55 hour week and on my two days off instead of resting up ive been studying my butt off #and even then i tried to make time to go grocery shopping and buy flowers and i went out of my way to cook something that ik they were #craving #i just… had it all thrown back to my face #idek anymore i give up

[theelast-straw]

Meet the Pit Babe alphas: Charlie x Babe

#listen i was fighting for my life against the lighting in those last two gifs fellas idek anymore #feel like i spent years in photoshop and just emerged looking like a feral beast i'm not tempting the color gods anymore than i already did #take it. i give up lmao #anyway look who's using shitposts to experiment with photoshop again #pit babe #pit babe the series #charliebabe #babecharlie #charlie x babe #rae tries to gif shit

[neurotonic]

ohhhhh wait before I start answering those shippy asks I have. ship name ideas..... might add to this when I get more ideas... but also feel free to send any thoughts and such :3c

Solaris/Fabricator/Prism - Triple Threat Self explanatory...Each of them became an antagonist at least once, and I like the alliteration too! Science Gals/Science Wives is nice but I feel bad since. technically there's another science gal in this game and she's not invited :( sorry ashley lincoln </3

Fabricator/Prism - Antidote Chaser Beverage Motif, Fabby's into poison and wine (poisoned wine?) and Prism has a recipe for a universal antidote cocktail in her puter... is this yuri? science says yes. something something finding someone as a cure to drown out all the bad stuff. I'm aware it's a bit one-sided which is, for me, the point since that's how I'd think their relationship would start out

Solaris/Prism - Solar Flare / Sunkissed Robots / Radiant Machinery These are a bit on the spot, but there's Something with the both of them having heat as a core part of them/their creations... I thought of having something to do with explosions but that feels a little mean LMAO. also radiant like the sun, or radiant like. radioactive. there's a lot of mental gymnastics happening sorry /lh

Prism/Phoenix - Bluebird / Kinetic Mocktail Credit to tumblr user solobodor for Bluebird since she used this as her roxanix art trade's filename and I Really like it.............it's simple and cutes! Blue for Prism and Birdie for Phoenix. But I also wanted to think of something with the drinks again since they've got that in common. I chose mocktail specifically since the fruit mocktail recipe card says it's 'meaningless without kinesium', and Phoenix has kinesium.. etc etc

#ieytd #i expect you to die #da fucking ships.. #the fabricator #commander solaris #roxana prism #agent phoenix #do i want to set up like. a poll for the multiple ones ... #idek #i also use creator and me for roxanix it's also pretty cute wahh #ik i made the most stuff with roxalaris but tbh. why not give fun ship names for friendships!!!! #platonic ship names should be a thing gotta be honest.. #also also. thought about it. i dont think lincoln would like anything to do #with zoraxis anymore... i dont think she'd gel with fabby well #probably prism? not so much solaris? #i dont have a good grasp of her character yet (of the little material weve got for her) so she's not entering the polycule...in my mind..ye #gene rambles #antidote chaser is my favorite tbh! never been so sure of a name til now

[kavehater]

I feel like that one meme that goes “mom I frew up 🧍‍♀️”

Anyways I finally got navias name card eeeee

#like Its not from being sick its from today being the oddest day ever #more precisely what makes me feel even more sick is this one girl #I don’t think I’ve ever felt the need to throw up simply because I was so angry … I think extremely frustrated is the better phrase #but like genuinely I feel like throwing up because of her #this whole day I’ve been trying to medicate through Genshin like trying to lowkey no life Genshin for today just so my mind could calm down #but everything goes bad like idek what the issue is #I mean I do but #yeah #everything is so wrong #dora daily #I feel like me posting this would make it feel even more wrong 😺👍 only 13 mins until the day finishes and I just can’t anymore ☠️ #genuinely don’t know how to deal with this ☠️☠️☠️ #I need dottore to give me a lobotomy

[pliablehead]

the four bracelets I kept/made for myself from usa rdf tour are ‘pliable head’ (natch), ‘pizza boy,’ ‘arch emily,’ and ‘akon in the 🦋 house’

i rly want to make myself a mountainhead-related one and I bought thee perfect shade of orange bead not long after the album art was released, but i waited because i was like ‘well i want to figure out what song I like/vibe with best and make the one that’s best for me’ but now i’m like i don’t?? know???? i genuinely love all of them???

and my top pick(s) right now are doing an enter the mirror one that’s either ‘look at me now’ or ‘thats why im in,’ i really love the sentiment of both of those, but i don’t feel like they.. match ? my other ones just like stylistically ?? and considering I wear them almost every day I want them all to feel like a matched set and so now I just don’t mcfreakin KNOW

#this has been a post #may just give up and make freakin. tv dog or cold reactor #i ALSO love the idea of an enter the mirror one that just says NOT••••YET with a ton of beads between them really separated out #genuinely the backing vocal choices on this entire album are still murdering meeeeeeerr #e e #idek anymore

[ozlices]

btw it is our little's chosen birthday today since it's also emu's bday & not a single person has wished them happy birthday even with them being devastated in our discord status so 🙃it'd mean a lot to them to come back from their sad nap to ppl wishing them happy bday

#mine #we're not saying their name or alias publicly on our acc that's pushing it #but like. i got permission from our primary protector to say smth bc they're genuinely devastated & we're all fucking pissed. #like they literally. told multiple ppl when they picked it out. & were already hurt when they didn't wake up to anything #& then made our status a vent & still. not a single person has said anything. like. idk. im rly pissed idek what to do w myself. #they've been put through so much bullshit this yr w being treated like shit & made to feel just as shitty as we all do. it sucks. #we're all pissed & hurt on their behalf & our own & each other's. i just. idk. #like they say u know who ur real friends are when ur hurting & it's like. damn not even our little has anyone who can be arsed #to give a genuine damn & say anything to them when they're crying on their bday they excitedly chose???? & looked forward to??? #they literally were begging & praying to get attention today but instead it's been mostly me & our protector out bc they're so devastated. #idk what to do or say anymore i cant even bring myself to say anything directly to anyone. #im sick of watching not even our little be spared from being treated like shit for being depressed considering the circumstances bruh. #ANYWAY... they're in the back of the headspace taking a nap w another protector to try to cheer up a bit. so. #wish them happy bday and wish them well smth idk just take the load off all this loneliness bc it's suffocating for ALL of us #but it def hurts them the most and it sucks. and im tired. and pissed.

[duckiemimi]

i’m scared for this year’s elections. i’m terrified. idk what will save this country. when i said i wanted to die, i didn’t mean like this.

#will voting even help anymore #democracy no longer exists in this country #now i ask: has it ever? #the president squeezing every drop of his power to abuse #the pres candidate he’s pushing forward is a war criminal and his vice is the current pres’s kid #we have a rice shortage bc the president and his cronies have been giving them out as ‘social assistance’ #to help his kid win #he’s bribing the election supervisors in broad daylight #every critique towards the candidates he’s backing up is apparently ‘hoax’ and is fit to be reported to the police #voting data will most likely be manipulated #fuck it’s already been manipulated for papua #idek if i can keep this post up if they actually win

[entropys]

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#had the worst day ever #last week things got a little better but today just destroyed all the progress i made #its so FRUSTRATING #how emotionally unstable i am 🫠 #like idek if im just overly sensitive or ive really just been let down over and over again #and like bc of this i KNOW i shouldn’t expect ANYTHING at all not even human decency from others #but i still have hope unfortunately so i get crushed every time something goes wrong (all the time everyday) #today i woke up early to go run some errands and got home late at night #and the whole day i only had one piece of bread and iced tea #and like. i KNOW this is exactly why i feel awful and terrible and everything is shit #which is why its even more frustrating bc i can’t do anything about it when im this depressed rn… #and like . its really annoying that everything is just going so wrong that i give up on it all bc i just can’t deal with anything #i don’t even have my best friend anymore to complain to #i really really reallly can’t do this alone but ig this is how it’ll be for a long time #it’s been like this since early july… honestly i don’t even think things will get any better soon #seeing how even tho i made some progress last week i lost it all now and i will keep losing it over and over again #im going crazy really #and i wish my parents would stop making me feel guilty that im depressed #like genuinely what do you want me to do about it????? #you get annoyed at me when i don’t eat the food you make when u know im insane and paranoid and cannot eat this ive told u a million times #and the worst thing is that they KNOW what i like and eat but they don’t make it ever they keep making the food i can’t eat #like u can’t expect me to go inside the kitchen and make it myself bc i will literally pass out and die #im not kidding when i say this bc so many times i try and i really faint bc of the distress it makes me feel #i feel like this might sound extremely stupid to anyone who hasn’t experienced it but that’s just how it is here #anyway im gonna go to sleep now even tho im probably gonna die of frustration #i don’t think i’ll even wake tomorrow x_x my head feels like it might explode any second now #we have a family gathering tomorrow but im ditching them so ill probably just sleep until tuesday 😀 great #(i say this bc its 7am rn… by tomorrow i mean today but it’s tomorrow in my head bc im still up)

[windenbro]

Hey! Big fan of your sims! I was wondering if Obie would be appearing on the download page at any point? Hes one of my favourite sims you have made, haven't seen him in a while and would love the opportunity to play with him in my save

you know what........ maybe so.

#i love him too but i literally have completely abandoned that save #like i dont even have that save in my game currently its just backed up #idek if i have all of his cc anymore #but if i do i might give him a lil spruce up and post him #no promises but we'll see!

[killerboyratzmp3]

lol just saw that the friend who has aired me for almost a year deleted their tumblr account. lololol

#idk if they blocked me or what....... like just randomly cut off all contact w me one day #which they're well within their rights to do but like. damn. couldnt even give a reason why or anything???? #like i think they were going thru a mental health episode or something like that.. but its been literally almost a year #and i sent messages trying to reach out until giving up #and in all of that time. not even a 'hello' or a 'i'm alive and just dont wanna be friends with you anymore' #they even stopped following me on pinterest i think????? idek if rhey followed me to begin witu its been that long #but like. idk if u ever see this cause ik u dont rly use tumblr anymore #first of all im rly worried about u. but if ur fine and youve been ignoring me all this time for reasons you never shared #that is. i mean to be honest that really sucks and it feels real bad. ugh whatever #gotten it out of my system now #precious.rants

[bandzboy]

i even thought abt giving up being a cc for quite sometime but this glitch is so annoying not to mention the permanent post editor that is gonna make gifs look lq it's just very annoying and a girl is tired idk

#like if they want us to give up my dudes you got me #bc i am almost there lol #idek if it's bc my weekend was bad but god is this fcking annoying #it's getting to a point where it's not tolerable anymore like wow #tris.txt

[munamania]

anyway. i am going to be SO incredibly livid and angry and throwing an absolute tantrum on thursday if i dont get good feedback on my script.

#and by good i mean anything actually helpful not just 'omg wow this is amazing' tho ofc that's acceptable too #like a month back now u. might remember that the day i was supposed to get feedback on my outline i literally ended up #holding back tears in class bc it was so. just. pointless and rude and genuinely not helpful #and last week everyone was soooo boring about the scripts that were due like no one was giving helpful critiques or anything #it was all just sooo insufferable u people are not being constructive about like actually helping someone develop their story or whatever #ur just being stupid. and by that i mean it. like they didnt even try to just understand the humor or worldbuilding of this one kid's scrip #t it pissed me off. #and i actually had fun with my script finally it's a first draft so u know it's gonna have its weak spots but eye had fun hanging out #w my girls <3 so. if people could attempt to be helpful this time around that'd be awesome. #like last time a few people made snide comments like 'um about this - well i can't even remember this one's name' hey girl. you could #probably look at the very contained outline i wrote that's right in front of your face instead of saying annoying shit like that to the #writer's face! #the vibes have just been off. that class was so fun for a while and lately it's been such a bitch fest. #they were so mean about mine and my friend's i think people r jealous that that's our bestie prof's class but like. he doesnt treat us any #kind of way you know. and he's supportive of everyone like u dont have to make this weird #sorryyyyy for complaining about what i THINK is wrong with everyone but like! idek how to deal with their passive aggressive shit anymore #they're mean to each other too sometimes #just gonna go crazy with it on thursday #abby talks

[evansbby]

vent part 4

#y’all are prob side eying me so hard rn #like ‘why won’t this bitch shut up’ 😭😂 #well I have a lot of thoughts racing in my head rn so I want to get them all written down #honestly right now the only time I DON’T feel anxious is when I’m fixing my dolls #and y’all I promise you I’m not a weirdo I do normal things like go out with my friends or read or watch tv etc #actually I don’t read anymore I don’t have the attention span for it #but anyways when I’m fixing up my dolls as in cleaning them brushing their hair giving them hairstyles or choosing new outfits #that’s when I feel the most in control of things and it helps me calm down #and to a degree I hate it bc does that mean I’m not equipped to handle real life!?? #that the smallest disruption to my routine has me screaming and crying and having a meltdown whilst everyone stares at me like I’m crazy???? #idk how to define ‘crazy’ but sometimes I truly feel it #like I just don’t feel in control of myself #or anything else #and someone told me once tang ‘when things don’t go your way you lash out’ #which is true and I hate being that person #someone also told me that I physically run away or close off if it’s something I don’t want to talk about #which is another vent for another day lmao #but ugh idek #i hate feeling like this #but idk how to snap out of it

[backformores]

idk how I feel on this file bc the client is SO useless but I love all my coworkers

#lua talks #he never uploads anything into the right fucking folder oh my god #AND THERES ALWAYS FOLLOW UPS BC HE NEVER PROVIDES THE RIGHT FUCKING SHIT #he literally replies and gives me nothing #like he literally replied and left the email blank and attached an excel that explained NOTHING #all my coworkers are vibey tho #i feel very babie in the team too bc im still in school #they always forget how young i am too which i guess i should take as a compliment but also i feel like im doing a shit job LMFAO #my self confidence is so shit after my last job idek anymore #anyways thats the life update #fuck this client tho #its literally like yes king give us nothinggg #except please im begging u give me something 😭😭😭😭😭