#id go home but i prolly shouldnt drive when im in this sorta mood :

[enevera]

i dont wanna count the weeks i just feel sad

#i hate crying and the only thing worse than crying is crying in public so no crying #we are not fucking crying get a fucking hold of yourself bitch #anywya its been like just over a month #what an awful fucking existence #had to talk to my therapist last week abt the fact that everything is just kinda horrible rn #nothing is good eerything even things i like and make me happy are just a little bit awful #bc i feel awful #i dont wanna eat i dont wanna go places i force myself to exist when id rather just curl into a ball and fade into nothing #quit fucking crying bitvch this is pathetic get a fcuking hold of yourself your moms dead get over yourself theres no time to be sad rn #got shit to do and a fuck ton to worry abt put the emotions in a little fucking box go get a pastry or smth jfc #maybe ill do some work #if my hands would stop shaking thatd be nice i probably need to eat but i rlly just dont want to hm #id go home but i prolly shouldnt drive when im in this sorta mood :/ #the mood swings are sooooo fucking bad btw lmao #vent #idk how to tw tag this ugh #this isnt even abt anything im just talking rn