#i've been gendered as female in public yet been told i need to shave my face

[lockhartandlych]

told my mom i'm developing a widow's peak and she laughed, saying "yeah, it runs in the family among the men."

jesus christ with that and the neckbeard i really am intersex arent i

#slightly terrified #being intersex isn't bad i know that #but it's such a different foundation on which to view myself #that's probably hypocritical coming from a proud tumblr genderfag boydyke kind of person #but i just. idk. it explains everything about what i've been through and what im still going through #i've had other trans men compliment me on how T is treating me #im not on T yet #i've been gendered as female in public yet been told i need to shave my face #and yet i've been gendered as male when wearing makeup #it's so strange #my existence is increasingly becoming foreign to the cis experience even though im not even on hormones yet #and in a way it's always been foreign #both in the trans way and in the 'i have a ton of body hair and acne at age ten' way #im usually all like 'yeah! fuck the gender binary! destroy expectations! down with cis!' #and also like. im a trans guy. i should want this and in a way i really really do #idk why my brain is being like this about it #fucking hell ​am i ever going to feel comfortable in my own body?