#i'm sure also being a loveless and heartless aro also doesn't help with that either lol

[aplarotape]

shoutout to the reminder of The 14th of February showing up on our main's dash because now i know to filter some tags in advance because as someone who's apothiromantic and the current syshost. i don't want it being shoved down my throat if i can help it bc i struggle to leave front often and i know i'll be stuck fronting that day via negative fronting trigger lol

(i mean. what i'm concerned about the most is discord related solely bc i'm an oc fictive and whatnot but. it's the little things that count ig because i still wouldn't wanna personally have to constantly see it either way)

#cy.txt #no hate to the people who enjoy it i just. not a fan it squicks me out #i'm sure also being a loveless and heartless aro also doesn't help with that either lol #either way at least it's a month away and arospec week is right after it (as compensation /j) #i'm just. not looking forwards to muting several entire discord servers that day bc i KNOW it'll be annoying and uh #don't really wanna run the risk of seeing art of source me that day so um. no <2 #if anything that day will be 'cy's refusal to touch discord unless we get dmed for some reason'. thank u #on the bright side i know this is a me thing in specific the others generally just don't care but me. yeahhh

[infiniteorangethethird]

for the aro ask game 1, 14 and 16 (also hi)

hi hiiii bestie how's it goinnn

When did you realize you were arospec?

Honestly, I... have no idea. It definitely was a long process. I think the thought first started rotating in my head about two years ago when one of my friends told me they had a crush on me. It was definitely flattering and I tried so hard to feel the same towards them, with (obviously) little success. But it got me wondering whether any of my previous crushes were genuine or if they were all just a product of me trying to fit in with my peers who were developing crushes left and right.

Then the JaidenAnimations aroace video came out (we all know which one) and another few months later I read Alice Oseman's Loveless, and it was at that point that I realized "feeling the same amount of attraction to everyone" doesn't necessarily mean panromantic if that same amount is precisely zero. 😂 In a way, that book was the final nail in the coffin, and I "came out to myself" as aro a few weeks later, I think.

So the short answer is "a bit more than a year ago, probably?" 😂

14. What are some stereotypes about arospec individuals that annoy you the most?

Probably the "cold, heartless aro". Society has associated lovelessness with evilness for so long that part of the aro community began pushing back with "actually being aro doesn't make you loveless!! we can still love platonically!!!", and now if you're like me and you are loveless who doesn't love their friends/family/others, you're cast out by society AND by your fellow aromantics alike, AND it makes you hate yourself for not being able to feel an emotion ppl arbitrarily decided is necessary for being a good person.

(I realize the irony in me telling I don't love my friends in response to an ask from a friend but uh. shhh)

16. Do you have any arospec OCs, if so tell us about them?

all my OCs are aroace until specified otherwise, duh

anyway as a (partially) MaDD-focused blog I like to talk abt my OCs/paras in their own posts so here's a quick rundown & I can make a separate post abt them if anyone's curious:

Amy - she's loveless aroace & autistic who makes it a point to go against as many of society's expectations towards social interactions and relationships as possible. She revels in being the "loner heartless machine" stereotype bc if people are going to call her weird either way, why force herself to be something she isn't?

Thalia - their arospec-ness is pretty recent so I'm still figuring things out. They're your most stereotypical people-pleaser soft uwu smol bean good boi aka the one most likely to be assumed "too pure for sexual thoughts". So obviously I had to make them aroallo, after all if romance is the purest form of human existence but sex is evil then what does that make someone who's interested in physical intimacy but not love? Luckily they're close friends with Amy so they have someone to share these worries with who understands and helps dismantle these baseless ideas.

Plus I have two non-human characters who don't feel attraction as a species basis so I'm not sure if they can be considered arospec in the traditional sense

#not me rewriting this like four times so that it's not a 10 page essay #that's how I have fun on weekdays #asks #queer stuff #the orange dimension #<- tagging bc I do talk about my paras here