i dont talk anymore. i dont want to. i have nothing to say. i have nothing to contribute to a conversation. words escape me and i dont care that they do. i can go entire days without muttering a word. i just want to be left alone, now.
"i love you/it'll pass" and "i don't know what to do with it/with what?/all the love i have for her, i don't know where to put it now" and "don't make me an optimist, you'll ruin my life" and "love is awful, it's painful, it's frightening, it's all any of us want and it's hell when we get there, so no wonder it's something we don't want to do on our own" and "i want someone to tell me how to live my life, Father, because so far i think i've been getting it wrong" and "women are born with pain built in, we carry it within ourselves throughout our lives" and "i think you know how to love better than any of us, that's why you find it all so painful" and "people make mistakes, that's why they put rubbers at the end of pencils" and "don't make me hate you, loving you is painful enough" and