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outoutdamnspark Ā· 3 months
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Well.
Things were calming down, and then something else happened.
(cw: death mention)
My biological father just died.
I'm not... sad? because I went no-contact over a decade ago. I'm just kind of Tired.ā„¢ļøGoing back to my hometown for the weekend for the legal stuff, go through his belongings, and most importantly to be with my mom, since I'm more worried about her than anything else.
There's also the possibility I'll have to deal with other relatives I've gone no-contact with. Which. Fuck, I hope not.
Wish me luck, y'all.
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anime-matchmaker-blog Ā· 7 years
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match up with a haikyuu, knb and ao no exorcist male pls? I'm a 160cm cancerian ambivert-NFP girl with long black wavy hair, curvy body, who loves cuddles n getting spoiled but i have my mood swings. Im a very romantic, cheesy n friendly person, loud, cheerful, can be extremely weird once u get to know me. I wear my emotions at my sleeve and is VERY easy to please. Despite being a fun-loving, carefree girl at times, im mature enough to lend my older sisters a shoulder when they need it. (cont-)
(-cont) I love dancing, reading/writing poetry, swimming, extreme sports, beaches, animals n going in road trips. Im adventurous but have my lazy days where i spend the whole day doing nothing in bed. Im a strong girl, i survived chemotherapy bfore. I dont judge, read people like an open book and try my best to be kind to everyone, im a very emotional n sensitive person. I have adult ADHD which comes with depression n anxiety. I have days where i breakdown n need constant reassurements. (cont-)
(-cont) im polite and respectful to people esp elderly people. I love talking, i can talk about a lot of things, ranging from stupid topics to questioning the worldā€™s existence, to cheesy/sappy shit to deep life conversations. I get along with ppl of all ages. I LOVE my friends (note most of them are childhood friends and are guys, bcus guys have less drama), they spoil me which will prob make my bf jealous. THANKS GUYS!
Sorry for the wait! Thanks for your patience and I hope youā€™ll like your matchups C:
Your matchups areā€¦:
Haikyuu!! - Sugawara Koushi
Sugaā€™s first impression of you is that youā€™re no stranger to guys. He sees you around school often, always with an entourage of guys who you appear to be friendly and close to. At first, heā€™s just someone in the background and you donā€™t notice him - heā€™s just another pretty boy, after all. You donā€™t see him completely until you run into him on the street and he reaches a hand out to you as he introduces himself. You remember who he is and you let him walk you home. The silence is awkward, but you keep a steady stream of questions flowing and by the time you reach your home, both of you are laughing and friendly to one another. Suga says heā€™ll see you around before heading off.
Somehow, Suga gets sucked into your existing pool of friends, but he manages to stand out because of his attractiveness and charm. He enjoys your weirdness and your playfulness, but he can also sense your serious side, especially when it comes to touchy subjects with your friends or in school. He walks home with you when he doesnā€™t have practice and you make every walk last longer by taking detours or alternate routes. Suga contributes to this by making his own journeys through the neighborhood and the two of you begin to discover elements about the community you never knew existed. These walks are never quiet now - youā€™re always talking, always engaging in Suga in a variety of topics. His range of knowledge helps when it comes to the random subject changes.
There are days when you and Suga are at one anotherā€™s houses simply working on homework or reading, days when you two are out and about running rampant in the city, and days when youā€™re planning road trips to get out of the city. Whenever you seem to have a bad day, Suga drops everything and marches over to you to make sure you have company and necessary essentials. Sometimes he wonā€™t be able to make it because of volleyball so your other friends take charge, but their care isnā€™t the same as his. Suga is the team mom, after all.
Your closeness with Suga appears to be the same as with your other guy friends so when the shift occurs, neither of you notice. Suga is first to confess his feelings though and he insists that no matter how you feel about him, heā€™ll always love you.
OtsuboTaisuke (Kuroko no Basuke): His height and appearance might makehim appear rather intimidating at first, but heā€™s actually pretty friendly andisnā€™t that hard to approach. Your talkativeness actually makes it rather easyfor the two of you to get friendlier with each other since thereā€™s always some mundanetopic you can use as conversation fodder. While at first, Otsubo will merely greetyou upon seeing you around the school since thatā€™s the polite thing to do, butafter having a few conversations with you, those casual greetings will turninto longer talks between the two of you. He wonā€™t mind listening to whateverit is you have to say, finding the majority of the topics you decide to bringup to be interesting though sometimes he canā€™t help but wonder how those sort of topics end up beingchosen. Your politeness and respect towards others definitely is a part of youthat Otsubo finds admirable since that canā€™t be said about some people. Plus,with how easy it is to get along with you, youā€™re certainly someone Otsubowants to hang out with more.
While itā€™s not like the two of you have a lot in common, itā€™ssimply entertaining being around you and thatā€™s more than enough for Otsubo towant to be friends with you. Though basketball is the main sport heā€™s into,learning about your interest in extreme sports does intrigue him and prompt himto ask you more about it and that might lead to you inviting him to try it withyou one of these days. He also wouldnā€™t mind going swimming with you if youā€™reinterested since thatā€™s a good way to get in some exercise too. If youā€™reinterested and asks him, Otsubo would totally be up to teaching you or playingbasketball with you too! Since Otsubo is the captain of the basketball team, hehas responsibilities he has to tend to and practices to attend of course, sothere are often days where he canā€™t spend much time with you. Heā€™d love to hearabout your adventures that you go on with your other friends though, or heā€™d chastiseyou a bit for lazing around in bed being unproductive but he wonā€™t mean that ina negative way much. Itā€™s also really refreshing how even with your fun-lovingand carefree side, you can be pretty mature when time calls for it. Sometimesbeing the captain will lead to Otsubo feeling rather stressed and itā€™d be niceif he could talk to you as a way to let off some steam. On the flip side,Otsubo will also be willing to lend you his ear and shoulder when you need it.
It surprises Otsubo how you wear your emotions on yoursleeve and it sort of contrasts with him. Not that he has a hard time showinghis emotions or anything but he just keeps them in check more often. It doesmake seeing how youā€™re feeling that day easier though but with how sensitiveand emotional you are, it can also be a bad thing since you might end up beinghurt easily. When Otsubo notices that youā€™re upset or feeling down, heā€™ll tryhis best to cheer you up. If you need someone to listen to your problems andrants, heā€™ll lend you an ear. If you just want someone to be there with you, heā€™llquickly offer to stay with you. He isnā€™t super affectionate or used to beingaffectionate but if itā€™ll help make you feel better, he could learn to enjoygiving you cuddles. Otsubo is good at lifting his teammatesā€™ spirits on thecourt and he hopes that works off the court too since itā€™ll certainly come inhandy in helping you. He might be at a loss regarding what to do when yourbreakdowns occur and will turn to his friends, your friends (if he knows themor have spoken to them before) and probably the internet to help him figure outhow to help you. He wouldnā€™t mind providing you with the reassurance you needto feel better, as long as it helps you. Your anxiety and depression also hashim stumped since he hasnā€™t friended people like you before, but Otsubo isdefinitely willing to learn.
Your cheery personality rubs off on Otsubo the more heā€™saround you and he finds your romantic cheesy side to be quite adorable. Hedoesnā€™t know much about romance at all and will probably resort to the Internet(after asking Takao once and getting teased in response) to see what sort of ā€œromanticā€acts he can do for you to make you smile. Giving you chocolates and flowers arethe first thing he tries, and then if you seem okay with him being close toyou, heā€™ll attempt holding your hand and giving you hugs. He does feel jealous at times at how closeyou and your childhood friends are but will understand that thatā€™s just howyour relationship with them is and wonā€™t interfere. As long as youā€™re happy andyou make time to spend with him, thatā€™s all he needs.
Ao no Exorcist - Suguro Ryuji (Bon)
At the beginning, all of your guy friends will protect you from Bon because of hos frightening he appears. You insist that itā€™s just his face and not much can be done to fix thatā€¦but after a while, you realize you really shouldnā€™t approach him. Heā€™s loud, rash, competitiveā€¦yup, you should definitely keep your distance. Despite this, you still run into him in the halls sometimes and he doesnā€™t pay you attention, so you try to not look at him either. Still, when he accidentally runs into you and makes you drop your supplies, he takes the time to help you pick them up and make sure youā€™re okay before continuing on his way. Maybe he isnā€™t so bad after all.
His academic prowess is outstanding and youā€™re surprised to hear that heā€™s at the top of his class. Since none of your friends can rival him, you decide to approach Bon and ask him to tutor you in your weaker subjects. He tries to shrug you off by recommending you to another student, but his own friends persuade him to take you on. You can tell heā€™s serious about the schoolwork so you keep your playfulness down during the tutoring sessions. Afterwards, you do what you can to loosen Bon up by taking him to your favorite stores or on walks to your favorite hiding spots. Heā€™s still uptight and serious during class, but once school is over and no one else is around, he relaxes around you and even though he doesnā€™t quite admit it, he loves the playful side of you.
In your downtime, the two of you can be found reading a lot. You canā€™t get Bon to read anything other than bibles and holy scripts, so you read poetry to him in exchange for listening to him recite fatal verses. Bon is capable of keeping up with your shenanigans, which makes up for his lack of talkativeness - heā€™s a big-mouth, but when it comes to nonsensical things or philosophical subjects, he tends to be quiet. Heā€™s also great at perceiving emotions so heā€™ll be able to tell if youā€™re having a bad day or not. Heā€™s still working on comforting you though, so your other friends will have to school him in that department.
Relationships and friendships are pretty much the same to Bon, so his friends have to help spell out his feelings for you. He doesnā€™t exactly confess and when he does, he stutters and mumbles the words. It doesnā€™t matter too much to him if you donā€™t return his feelingsā€¦so long heā€™s able to remain as your friend, heā€™s happy to be whatever you want him to be.
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