#i'm sorry father. having flesh desires and a sense of self is such a burden

[yeslordmyking]

Forgive me Lord.

I will keep trying to WANT to deny myself and obey You, instead of obeying because it feels like I have to.

I know Your way is right. I accept it. But help me to actually LOVE that I don’t know what’s best for me and that I can’t do what I want because of my wickedness. 

Perfect love drives out fear. Help me stop being scared of not obeying and actually naturally obey You because of a genuine heart and perfect love.

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