#i'm not tagging this with suicide mentions given that it's nothing that isn't shown in the series already (so I expect you're ok with it)

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

You know, I was wondering this for months now. Considering Yosano’s painful backstory, how do you think she felt about dazai’s suicide mania. Seriously, it’s all he talks about.

This is really interesting anon. I'm not sure if they interact much to be honest. I'm trying hard to think of a moment they actually talk... well, we do know she's at the core of the plan to revive him if he ever does die, and she absolutely would've been a part of that discussion so I think it's a given that she's looking out for him at least a little, in her own way. I would say, given her reaction to Kajii's obsession with death and her typical blunt demeanor, she probably thinks Dazai's fixation on suicide is uh... pretty stupid. But at the same time, the life he's threatening there is his own, so I like to think there was some brief concern at the beginning.

See, I think for the very reasons I'd love to see them interact (history with Mori, unfortunate commonalities with Mori they probably don't like, similar defense mechanisms of projecting an image to avoid uncomfortable questions or people getting too close - one, mischievous and lazy, and the other, highly respected and slightly sadistic)... I think this is exactly why they probably don't.

See, I don't think Dazai knows Yosano's history. He doesn't have a way of knowing it, and it's kind of the Agency's best kept secret - Fukuzawa and Ranpo are the only ones who appear to know. However, Dazai's countenance is such that he immediately had Fukuzawa telling Kunikida to just shoot him if he proves to be a threat lmao, and given a lot else in the series, I just assume that to those who aren't Atsushi or random people who get the filter of dialed-up charm Dazai, that the man just gives off supremely bad vibes. I feel like, if anything, Yosano was probably on alert around him for a bit. Dazai operates a lot like Mori, after all, and I doubt that would've gotten past her.

Also their defense mechanisms are the same. Like. They actually have some really fascinating commonalities. I love the part where Yosano grabs Atsushi's leg to examine it in her first focal chapter. I know that sounds weird but, just look.

Up until this point, all we know about Yosano is that she takes no crap from stupid people (especially stupid guys), is a doctor whose methods are... questionable, and apparently everyone in the Agency respects her but is also terrified of her. But this scene shows us something else: she's incredibly analytical. Her medical knowledge allows her to tell how Atsushi's ability is working in an instant, but when asked about it, she goes back to "shame I couldn't treat you", which is more in line with her "terrifying doctor" image she's built up. She deflects anything other than this image, is what I'm trying to say. It reminds me a lot of when Dazai gets serious then flips it so it seems like the moment was just him being silly and goofy.

Anyways, their defense mechanisms are similar in that they both build up carefully crafted images to avoid questions and vulnerability - Yosano by making herself more threatening and Dazai by making himself less threatening - so yeah, I don't think any interactions would have them being anything but being super roundabout and cordially pleasant with each other (much as I think there is some mutual respect there between them... I love the bit where Yosano is about to go full feral on the guy who hurt the cafe owner and Dazai's full-on smirking about it like "ohoho you screwed up big time lol").

As for the whole suicide thing, I know it can be uncomfortable the way the Agency brushes off his attempts, but I honestly think that Dazai's attempts are not actually serious (I firmly believe he is not actively trying to die anymore, even if he is still passively suicidal and genuinely depressed - he does it because it's a part of his nonthreatening yet disconcerting image, and also because it's likely a habit at this point), and that they probably have tried to speak with him about it at one point but it didn't go anywhere (because Dazai would never have an honest conversation about something like that...) so they settled for making a plan in case something did end up happening to him. From the wording in 55 Minutes, I thought it seemed pretty strongly implied that this plan was created less out of the potential for Dazai getting hurt on a mission than in the case of if he should ever hurt himself.

See, what I'd be interested to know is if Dazai made the terrible error in judgement of attempting to flirt with Yosano on introduction. ...I bet that went well.

#i think this kind of semi-became the start of a yosano analysis... whoops #i hope this actually answered the ask #thanks for the ask! #bsd #bsd yosano #bsd dazai #i'm not tagging this with suicide mentions given that it's nothing that isn't shown in the series already (so I expect you're ok with it) #but if you want a tag to filter it out just let me know #storyrambles

[angelsunoo]

Stay with me / lhs (TEASER 1)

PAIRINGS heeseung x fem!reader

GENRE long distance relationship, fluff, angst, crack, smau and written, sad

SUMMARY long distance relationships were never fun. Given that your boyfriend, Heeseung, studied in another country. A lot of time was missed, hugs and kisses you both barely shared. Missing him was the hardest part. But for how long can you keep trusting him?

WARNING swearing, heeseung cheats on reader, cheating, mentions of suicide, nicknames(angel, baby)

TAGLIST OPEN! send an ask if you want to be tagged :)

MARCH 21, 2020

"Oh my gosh...Hee.." you stare down at the paper, "I don't know what to say." You sigh, becoming in awe of the paper shown infront of you.

"Baby, isn't this great?!" He gives you his big smile, "I got accepted!" He gives you an embrace.

"Yeah! This is great...!" Your voice trails off, becoming obvious that something was wrong. Your boyfriend's face morphs into a frown.

He places his hand on your waist, "Angel, what's wrong?" He asks you, tone lacing with genuine worry. "Nothing. It's nothing, baby." You dismiss the question, hoping he wouldn't push it any further.

"Angel. You know you could tell me if there's anything wrong." He rubs your back. And you let a sigh in return. "I'm just sad you have to go." You pout, not looking at him in the eye, " The US. That's really far you know."

"I know, angel." He sighs, "it's okay if you don't want me to go. I could just decline it-" you cover his mouth with you palm, "No! It's okay, baby. You need to go, you have to go. This is a good opportunity for you."

"Are you sure angel?" He asks you. You take a deep breath and answer, "yes. I'm sure. Don't worry about me."

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

APRIL 8, 2020. THE DAY OF HIS DEPARTURE.

You sob uncontrollably, desperately hugging his entire body. Your hand griping his shirt tightly, while his hands, rubbing the top of your head in attempt to soothe you.

"Heeseung...! You asshole!", you cry out, "you better return to me!"

He smiles at you. "Shhh. I will baby. I will always come back to you." His voice cracks, he was holding back his tears. He hugs you even tighter, not wanting to let go.

"Stay with me." You whisper. You look like a mad woman in the airport right now, but you couldn't care less.

"Angel. Don't do this." He tries to pry away from your rib-crushing embrace. "You have to let go." He says, though he also isn't very fond of the idea of you letting him go.

"Promise me this. Heeseung." You pull away, "promise me you won't find anyone new."

"I promise." He smiles, " Now, Y/N, promise me. Promise me you won't find anyone new."

"I promise."

#enhypen x reader #enhypen angst #enhypen scenarios #heeseung x reader #teaser #heeseung fluff #heeseung angst #enhypen fluff