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swords-of-a-soilder · 4 months

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Bless you for compiling what’s going on with that ex-bird app. It’s been genuinely insightful for me to understand the thoughts of the kinds of people behind those accounts.

That person trying to cancel creators for associating with Forever (and probably advocating for his lore to be excised from the server) saying “but I can’t possibly give up guapoduo, it’s My Hyperfixation” is very telling. Hypocrisy specifically in the context of “separating the art from the artist” isn’t something I’ve seen before, shockingly, so I guess I get to add that to my Social Media Discourse Bingo. (I had an online friend in 2016 who I was terrified to talk about my interests with because I didn’t know what angry punk teenagers on tumblr had deemed “evil and disgusting”, and even SHE stopped listening to some of her favorite metal bands when she learned they were homophobic, and had absolute turmoil when she learned that David Bowie might have allegedly slept with an underage groupie in the 70s. Her constant, unpredictable rage at seemingly random pieces of media was awful for my mental health, but at least she wasn’t a genuine hypocrite.)

Also that tone of “I’ve had good memories here… but I just can’t handle it anymore.” It sounds like someone whose meaningful but soul-crushing work has finally broken them, almost sounding like someone I knew at the frontline worker job I had mid-pandemic who missed her own birthday three years in a row, got repetitive stress injuries, and then got passed over for a promotion that was given to someone who did a fraction of the work. But the “God willing, I’ll never come back” was followed by “I’m 13” …damn, I got whiplash so hard that I astral projected into a universe where things made sense for a second. Because of course kids don’t have a complex view of other countries’ political systems or cultural pressures. Or the nuances of personal change and redemption. Or that sometimes people are just not online for a few days. And of course a 13-year-old doesn’t understand how dumb and petty they look by trying to ruin other peoples’ careers in the name of Activism (tm) while having a fandom portmanteau username.

“I didn’t want it to come to this but… I’m going to delete twitter!” I hope so, but more for their own sake, honestly. I actually have less anger towards most of them now. Many are kids with a false sense of grandiosity that makes them believe they are the ultimate moral authority, but have very little understanding of how messy people or societies can be. I just hope they can learn one day, and look back on who they are now and cringe. (And then many years after that, have the grace to forgive themselves.)

Oof, sorry for the wall of text.

I’m still not over the whole situation with Forever. I miss his energy, and his accent, and his silly bits with Richas that always dragged on too long, and N.I.N.H.O. (and everything it represented), and how different he and Cellbit are but how they understood each other WAY too well, and how he tried to make people who didn’t log onto the server as often still feel welcome and wanted, and how happy he got when anyone non-Brazilian even tried to speak a little bit of Portuguese. (I was learning, but I’ve barely touched it since.) I won’t lie, it’s affected me far more than I thought it would.

I miss Forever. Thank you for your blog being a little space where that’s okay.

I'm honestly a little worried for the kid (s), not in a "oh I just want the best for" fake bs way just a little concerned tbh. I still don't like them but I don't hate them either, they're a kid.

But at the same time I'm worried for their well being, they have like 5,000 follower on their main Twitter and 28 on curious cat (which is apprantly high for that app )

That's 5000 people (teens or not) waiting for you to tell them how to feel that can't be good for their mental state, not for a 13 yr old kid.

Most of their life was spent learning about the world and their still learning, these are the ages where you're worried about the sun blowing up.

You haven't seen how awful the world can be yet, You haven't seen how much worst it could get you haven't learned calculus yet!

To you the world is only these 13 years and you think if you don't act now everything will be over.

I get it, I had that fear too, most people grown into it and realize just how shitty it can get an settle in choosing their own battles and not letting It consume them, because no one had time for that anymore.

You want to experience the most out of live while you can and the older you get the easier it is to balance.

To me it looks like one of those situation where you'll look back and think "I wish I enojyed my childhood."

Because 5000 people waiting for you to tell them who to bash, 28 people prasing your while admitting they use to hate you.

It can't be good. And if they were to read this they'd probably say "oh you don't actually care you just want to shit on me."

And like, yeah I don't care, but am I saying all this because I want to shit on them? no I'm just pointing out concerns.

Apart from that I fully agree with anon.

#Ask #Qsmp #qsmp discussion

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closet-of-bones · 7 months

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So I had a realisation today. AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT IT! Just hear me out if you've nothing else to do. Personal rant ahead, funny story tho. I think it's interesting?

TLDR: my love of Sun & Moon might have been written in the stars??? Destiny?????

So a little fun fact about me! I am a big fan of Sun & Moon. I'm a fan of the FNaF series as a whole and have dedicated a lot of my life to it but my love for the Daycare Attendant is just something else. I really like them. They are the kinds of characters that I love in every sense.

Another thing I am REALLY into?? Fairies. I'm not completely sure why but my obsession with the fae is a big one. My first ever hyperfixation was fairies. I'm actually in the middle of building a fairy garden irl with glowing fairy houses, hidden lore...the whole she-bANG! ✨️

Growing up I had a MASSIVE collection of Rainbow Magic fairy books. Literally hundreds of them. I loved having them read to me as a very small child and when I grew up to being a kid big enough that my family stopped reading books to me I loved coming home from school to curl up in my room and read them to myself. Over and over again. All of them in order. I loved imagining myself into the stories as if I were a third of the main cast. I love writing stories and making little worlds up now probably because of this obsession I had.

Today I got curious about something. I was having a conversation with someone and somehow Jack Frost (the main bad guy in the book series) came up. It had been a long time since I'd last seen an image of him so I looked the guy up.

And quite literally mid-conversation, whilst studying the guy absently and still talking to my friend, I paused. I knew exactly what I was looking at, I'd seen the guy MANY times before and was very familiar with him, but something just seemed different this time. A very strange sense of familiarity I hadn't felt before was nagging at me from the back of my mind.

And then it clicked. Suddenly it all made a little more sense.

Just take a moment to look at this silly guy if you havent before.

There he is. The silly little guy in all of his comically villainous glory. Does he remind you of anyone in any way? Even a little bit??

Is there a sense of familiarity here?

It's them. That strange familiarity that was playing in the back of my head upon seeing him again.

IT'S THEM!

And somehow it makes even more sense if you know anything about his character I swear

They are almost built to be exactly what I would like. What I have liked since I was young. It must have been destiny that I would become obsessed with these characters right?! Genuinely, I thought I just liked jesters. I thought I just liked the Jekyll and Hyde dynamic. The opposites. The pairs?? Whatever you want to call them. I thought that was my attraction to Sun & Moon. And it is! But there's something else. It's been deep rooted into me.

The designs. The similarities. It's been burned into my brain from a time long gone. All this time!

And I had no idea. Until today lmao. It doesn't change anything of course, I still love them. In fact I love them even more now. But it's just so interesting to me-!

It's like I've been doing a character study on myself. Discovering how my own brain works. I can't stop thinking about it.

I think I have a type. And it's quirky, bouncy little trickster guys with silly goals, blue colours and something spiky around their faces.

. . .

Okay so...rant over! 👏 I need to lie down ＼( _ _);

#closet talk #personal ramblings #idk what to tag this #im really writing this for myself and anyone else interested #in the going ons of a nobody #jack frost is the original daycare attendant #and a king #and a queen #and everything ive ever wanted #the ideal man #please tell me someone gets this #please i am begging #orz

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kosherdragondev · 2 years

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Okay, so first things first, since we're mutuals but haven't actually talked at all: Hi Dev, I'm Dande, you seem cool, nice to meet you!

And now, second things second: Since you reblogged that post about being okay with random asks, I can't resist. Are you comfortable sharing more about the story of how you met your husband?

(No pressure at all; if it's too personal a question, please feel free to decline/disregard this ask. I am just so intrigued as to how in the world Reddit stalking becomes marriage 😂)

Hi! Nice to meet you too!

It started in 2021. I was spending too much time on Reddit instead of studying for class. The sub I frequented most was r/judaism, and I started to recognize the usernames of frequent posters. Sometimes I'd look through their profiles if I was curious.

In February, I became a little hyperfixated with one Redditor. His hashkafa seemed similar to mine, and his posts revealed a fascinating personal history: his years in the army, work in abortion access, religious journey, and activism. I didn't know his name, so I called him the antifa cowboy. When I got into arguments with my parents, I'd tell them I was going to marry the guy from Reddit and move to Texas.

At the time, I was a lurker. I didn't have a Reddit account. When I realized I was genuinely interested in him, I decided that I had two options.

I could make an account and message him to express my interest

I could spend hours looking through his nine years of posting history trying to find clues that would help me find his identity. Then I could get a shadchan to set us up.

I chose option 2 and neglected my studies horribly. I'd spend hours a day searching through his post history looking for clues and searching the websites of graduate programs in history trying to identify which student was him.

Once I found out which school he was in (it was his flair on a local subreddit), I checked the facebook page of their history program. I knew he passed his oral exams and became a doctoral candidate in the fall, so I scrolled through the page to see the congratulations for students. I found a post that matched the date of his reddit comment about it, and it was congratulating two students for passing their oral exams. One was a woman, and the other one was antifa cowboy. But now I had a name!

I looked at his profile on the department website, and his was the only one to mention Jewish topics in research. So I had confirmation.

(I'm aware of how unhinged and concerning this sounds)

I remember that exact date. It was March 23, 2021. I was flying to Florida for Pesach that day. There's a WhatsApp message on my phone of me telling my friend about my stalkery achievement and being extremely excited.

The next morning, I told my aunt that I found out Texas Reddit Guy's name, and that I saw on his Facebook that he was Obi Wan for Purim one year and the eleventh Doctor for another, and that I saw on his IG that he cooked a lot and made homemade pasta from scratch.

My aunt told my mother (without my permission), who of course immediately started imagining him as her future son-in-law.

Meanwhile, I realized I had a problem. What I had done was weird and kind of creepy and off putting. If I ever started a relationship with antifa cowboy, I couldn't lie about my reddit stalking. All my family and friends knew about it because I talk too much. So I couldn't lie, and the truth was very off putting.

I didn't have the option of doing nothing and trying to move on from the crush because I knew from past experience that I could hyperfixate for years on a person who didn't know I existed and waste so much time in limbo without making any progress with dating. When I'm fixated, I can't even consider other options. It doesn't work.

The whole dilemma of what I was going to do about the situation kept my frozen for about a month and a half.

This is getting very long, so I'm gonna have to do a part two.

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bigfatbreak · 3 years

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lmao im absolutely loving ur feralnette au I like obsessively scrolled thru ur tag today I love the idea of her finally fucking letting loose

Question: how do feralnette and felix start to get to know each other? Her walls are up pretty high and I'm curious how he managed to chip away at them

the answer to that is: he was relentlessly annoying.

Felix has high standards in his friends and associates, and there was absolutely no one in class he could talk to about fashion. He's always brimming with ideas, especially since his parents are more than happy to provide materials for him, but its... difficult, not having someone to talk to about it. Sure he can call his mom - he's nearly a momma's boy with how he dotes on her - but its not the SAME as being IN THE MOMENT with someone.

he manages to glance at Marinette's sketchbook and sees its full of outfit ideas, and essentially (in private) calls her out on her bluff of being a mean tough girl, and after like a week of him bugging her nonstop she finally caves and starts talking fashion with him. its really hard to ignore a guy who keeps asking genuine questions like "which would be the best complimentary color for this vest" and "is silk worth it or is faux silk the better option since I'm just practicing' and "how do I undo this stitch without making the material fray" with no ulterior motive. she's kind of, soothed, by knowing answers to these questions in a way that isn't, LIFE THREATENING-

Marinette's not too leery of Felix since he's a transfer student, (he's got no ulterior motives that involve her) and he's so damn snooty with his standards that she figures he won't try to drag her into other friendships, so he's a safe 'associate' to have. This is correct! Felix's friends are mostly online or long distance. he doesn't try to drag her into drama or anything either, he's not hitting her up at three in the morning asking for relationship advice or to copy her notes, he basically JUST talks about fashion with her.

its a safe topic she doesn't mind broaching. its after a couple weeks of them bouncing around this topic that their conversations begin to bleed into the personal area of actual friendship rather than "a truce so I can talk about my hyperfixation with you" and she starts to let her guard down around him.

#felix has the rich kid If I Try Enough I Will Get What I Want energy #but like... in the charming way #feralnette au #character blabs

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mushroomjar · 2 years

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holding my hands out ..... please show me ur picrews for em >:3c no reason... im just curious .... (definitely not grabbing my stylus)

NOOOOO STOP WHY IS EVERYONE BEING SO NICE TONIGHT HERE I'M GONNA CRY I'M😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺

Okay okay aaahhh I'll show! But I think the post will get long with all the images so I'll out it under a read more

Aahhh this is literally why I need to learn to draw, most of the time Picrew can't do them justice!! But I do my best and I'm happy with what I can do

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This is Avery (he/him preferred but any pronouns that aren't she/her are okay), the sleep-deprived punk of the group (it is very hard to make a visible punk on Picrew so you have to trust me on this one, like in my head he cannot wear an outfit that doesn't have at least a couple patches on it). Half-Argentinian, half-USAmerican (you should assume all my OCs are Argentinian unless specifically stated otherwise). Looks like a very unapproachable person but is actually super thoughtful and kind even to strangers... though he does have a very quick temper, so he at least tries his best. His scars are from frequently getting into fights, which doesn't help at all. Most likely to get in trouble for the most insignificant stuff, will fuck things up on purpose. Despite all this, Avril Lavigne is one of his top artists on Spotify

Nadia (she/her) was one of my first OCs from the ones I'll be talking about in this post, and she's changed a lot but at the same time she's remained exactly the same so whenever I think about her I always get so 🥺 A very sweet and kind girl, but also a meme expert. She's usually the one in charge of making the memes for the friend group, not that she minds. Very easy to get along and make friends with her, but good luck getting to read any of her writing (wants to become a writer, doesn't show her writing to anyone. Perfectionism will do that to you). I did make another Picrew like the first one I showed for Avery since I usually make a Picrew like that for every one of my OCs, but I can never get her to look quite right in it, so I decided to just show this one, since it's extremely accurate to how I picture her in my head

Luka (he/him) is the social butterfly of the group and the one that lacks all the braincells. Very passionate about his hobbies and interests (all musical interests, mainly, like singing and playing instruments), also very passionate about climbing the most unclimbable trees (yes, he does end up falling off of them a lot). Pretty hyperactive and easily bored, so he's always looking for something to do. Absolutely cannot stay still, except for when the hyperfixation hits. He can be very clueless and sometimes a bit tactless, but at the end of the day he'll be one of your best friends and genuinely cares a lot about you. Oh, also, French. Sorry.

Felix (he/him) is the opposite of a social butterfly, would much rather stay at home and lie about all day than interact with new people. Which is why people don't believe he's Luka's best friend. A bit quiet at first, but once you get to know him, if you can engage conversation in a topic he likes, he'll talk and talk for hours on end. So if you actually want to know how bees are able to fly, just ask him, and be willing to sit there and listen for an hour, he'll be too excited to stop once he starts. Also really into mushrooms (because I needed to give that interest to an OC too) and Spider-Man, he forced absolutely everyone he knows to watch all the movies because "we can't be friends if you don't like even one of the movies"

Ximena (pronounced hee-meh-nah) (they/them), aka the funky earrings lesbian of the group. This is another case of the Picrew not being good enough to portray them. I mean, the stickers and hairpins are accurate, but Ximena is the type to wear very bright colors and to dress in mainly rainbows with thousands of accessories at a time (think like a mix of kidcore and rainbow with decora influences, that's them). Absolutely stim machine, which actually makes them a really good companion to Luka. And like Luka, they are incapable of speaking at a low volume. Adores their friends and constantly goes out of their way to do things with/for them. If you're their friend you will end up with at least five friendship bracelets they made for you, and you better save every single one of them. Very optimistic and intelligent, wants to become a scientist in the future

And this is Claudia! (She/her) It's pretty hard to make alt people in Picrews as I've confirmed multiple times myself ;-; She's actually a goth! Has been dressing as such since very little. She's a very blunt and honest person, which makes a lot of people think she's rude. She's not rude for being completely monotone and never lying, she's rude because insulting people is her passion! Not a single person is safe from her hateful remarks. So, basically, the definition of a mean lesbian. Luka usually ends up being the victim of most of her remarks, and no one knows if it's because she's really fond of him or if she genuinely hates him, and oh my god why have I mentioned Luka so many times in this post, he isn't even my favorite. Anyways, Claudia is also a piercings enthusiast, and though she hates other people touching her, she absolutely loves styling other people's hair. She also dabbles in drawing. She's extremely perceptive, and all her friends are really glad to be her friends

And because you said you liked her, here's Ciara! (She/they) She's one of my newest OCs so I'm still developing them, but they go back and forth between lovecore outfits and pastel punk outfits, they are incapable of wearing an outfit that doesn't have at least a little pink. Seems like a cinnamon roll but is actually very foul-mouthed and has a bit of a temper. They are nice, they just find it fun to not be nice sometimes. Half-Irish, half-Argentinian. Huge metalhead, it's the genre she listens to the most and she doesn't listen to a lot of music outside of it. And like I said before, Claudia's girlfriend

Okay that's it, I've been at this for an hour. And I've done all of this without talking about Andrea, Felix's dads and their best friend, Avery's neighborhood friends, his sister, Nadia's sister, Ximena's siblings or my fantasy OCs. I think that's the biggest intro I've made for my OCs in one sitting! I decided to only mention the main ones (except for Ciara, I made a special mention for her since you said you liked her tag)

So I hope you enjoyed that! Because I did! And again thank youuu so so so so so much for the ask! I love getting to talk about my OCs, even if I've been getting to do it more often lately it stills always gets me so happy and excited (blorbos from my head I guess). Have a super nice rest of the day and/or week!!

#goooood i'm sososososo happy!! :DDD #i love them all so much i think about them for hours every single day #thank you sososososo much for asking omgggg #cat answers #oc tag #bromantically #my id #id in alt text

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