#i’d call it a flaw because it obviously comes from a place of profound grief and insecurity about one’s role in other people’s lives

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i really think eddie instinctively taking his distance from the suffering of those he loves - by enlisting a second time, by not entering buck’s hospital room - should be taken as the character flaw that it is. because it’s only human to take a step back in front of a fire that promises to burn you to the ground. it’s only human to try and find shelter where everything hurts a little less. that’s exactly what buck’s coma dream was about; escaping pain. and eddie is the bravest soul, he’d give his life for the people he loves without a second thought but when even that wouldn’t help? he has to go - just for a while, just until he understands what his role in this new, awful reality is.

and the really astounding thing about this specific characteristic of eddie’s psyche is that buck has him figured out so well he imagines a version of eddie who lives in LA while his kid is in texas even if it kills him - even if he keeps fighting for him every day.

#buck really said: i’m gonna love this man so hard his whole being is going to be with me wherever i go #and i think that’s beautiful #i’d call it a flaw because it obviously comes from a place of profound grief and insecurity about one’s role in other people’s lives #( #speaking as someone who does the exact same when people i love are going through it but it’s *never* for lack of care or love #) #eddie diaz #buddie