#i was so pissed in class today bc my prof played some xmas music after a discussion abt it and i felt like she was spending too much time

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honestly i am pretty concerned about how easily irritated i get like no one else i've ever met has such severe mood swings.... literally sometimes just hearing people being a little bit noisy can set me off and it's not like I do anything about it (besides my severe rbf) but like. I WANT to be nice friendly person and i feel like I used to be? Like in elementary school

#i was so pissed in class today bc my prof played some xmas music after a discussion abt it and i felt like she was spending too much time #not focusing on the class materials... and like i look around the room and realize IM the only person feeling this way..... #but my mood swings have always been pretty bad my siblings used to get so mad at me bc 1 insensitive or annoying comment #from them could totally shut me down or i would randomly start crying #and like i dont really have many friends bc so many people just bother me for basically bo valid reason #i get that from my mom though she loces that im such a bitch thats how we bond #even with people im dating ive never been in like a real actual relationship bc im SO picky and one minor thing could totally turn me off #most of the time i dont even really like being around people. my best friend in the world lives 4 hours away and we text maybe a few times #a week. if that #using the tags as therapy. for awhile i was pretty convinced i had like a personality disorder or like bpd bc i was sitting in intro to #psych like. hmm why do i have all of these symptoms. but i hated therapy so much even tho i only went to one session. and im not into self #diagnosing so