#i want to be happy and giggly and laugh at bad jokes and spill milk all over the counter then laugh at that too

[buck-yyyy]

sighhhh

#i would really like to be very drunk right now but it’s A. fucking tuesday B. hate the process of getting drunk and C. don’t exactly like my #options for where to get it from #i’m not going to—don’t worry #i know it’s a bad idea #for a million reasons #but i really really really get the phrase drown your sorrows now #god #i want to be happy and giggly and laugh at bad jokes and spill milk all over the counter then laugh at that too #but instead i’m just stuck in my own head #languishing over my shitty fucking thoughts about my shitty fucking life and my shitty fucking existence #if anyones reading this—i promise im okay #and i don’t need you to convince me that it’s a bad idea to (i know and im not going to) #i just. i dunno. i want the happy warmth #i want the DISTANCE. #yk? #agh #im gonna ruin my own life if i keep going like this lmfao #tw vent #tw alcohol