#i want it to look like a 15yo drew it as a gift for his best friend

[clericlost]

think i might kill for will's painting to purely be a labor of love.     he's fifteen years old and largely self - taught,  art a well - oiled medium of expressing himself but only ever in ways he simply shared among friends.     he draws for fun and for others,  for himself when words aren't enough.     the chances the painting looks anything close to professional are slim,  or they should be.     i hope it looks lopsided and maybe even a little messy  ;  far from bad but just out of reach of something perfect.     it's the colors that make it beautiful,  soft blues and oranges,  a glow of pink,  liquid nostalgia on canvas.     it's the fact he's spent hours on it,  this bite - sized piece of himself he's feeling brave enough to share with someone so important to him,  just because.     unabashed affection and gratitude.     honesty.     that's what makes it beautiful.

#study. . .⠀meta #i can't stop thinking abt this now i need it to be bad #not Bad cause he's still been drawing since he was itty bitty but i don't want it to look incredible #i want it to look like a 15yo drew it as a gift for his best friend #i want it to look visibly anxiety - ridden but also visibly so so affectionate #shaking my screen rn #i know there's only so many ways you can convey these subtle ideas through art but also art is the best way to convey them #i want the colors to be the key ingredient so badly. some colors are just inherenlty nostalgic and i feel like #this snapshot memory of will's is almost frozen in time #if it is the playgound moment yk #this polaroid in his mind. a lens flare in his memory the sunlight hazier than it actually was #in that way only certain childhood memories are #i am asking for the impossible from the writers here but i'm going bonkers thinking abt it #this is what his painting is like TO ME. it's my blog and i'll clown if i want to....