#i wanna tell my dad that my mom cheated on him soooooooooo bad

[bennitastisch]

i wish i could fuck my parents up in the same way they fucked me up

#i wanna tell my dad that my mom cheated on him soooooooooo bad #but i also wanna see for how long my mom will continue to pay my phone bill #so i wont #but i really wanna hurt them #cause every day since they kicked me out im scared that the same thing will happen here living with the bf and his parents and im also like #100 times more scared the bf will break up with me since my parents kicked me out bc i always thoight well i know my parents dont really #support my life choices and they don’t particularly like me that much but at least they know im their child and they try to love me #and i dont know i think they still do love me but not in a way that is good for either of us #and it is only speculation by now bc we havent talked in a year #they prolly expect me to come back home like my brother did when they kicked him out #but i will never talk to them again #and i know i shouldnt care what they r up to now or how they are doing but i really really really want them to be miserable #and i know its no healthy but they hurt me so much #they did so much damage to my mental health that will take so much time amd effort and energy to buff out again that i just want them to hur #i once asked them if they kicked my brother out if they could promise me to never do that to me #and they said of course no one is going to kick me out #and then they did #and i know its stupid and im naive to have trusted them but knowing this #knowing they promised me they wouldnt kick me out and then doing it anyways #because i wasnt willing to be their little pet or doll or whatever the hell anymore it just hurts #they always wanted me to be who they wanted me to be #and as soon as i broke out of that mold they didnt like me anymore #they didnt like their own child anymore cause they couldn’t control it and i hate that i knwo that they r fucked up ppl for it and still wan #them to come crawling to my door and apologize and tell me they still love me #just so i can tell them to fuck off and close the door in their faces #i want to hurt them like they hurt me #i hate that they have that power over me #bc im not a malicious person #but i also want revenge #ben vents