#i uust . feel like im watching tbis play out Not in my life

[29121996]

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#i gotta die . thats rhe only explanation here #brain is FUCKED over tgis #i am . somegow icking myself out whixh is disruptinf the intensity ofnthe emotional reaction #hoaever. i am not liking how im feelinf Regardless. #i got what i wanted. n im just . i didnt Need it . and gettung it diesnt xhange Anythib At All #if i pretend the cault didnt just ooen n im npw facing Everythibg #ive just soent the last 3wks in thsrapy Gettibg over #gotta b a test bc i feel nothibg vut everythibg at the same time its Cool . #being high is definitely hslping. #i got this mssg sober . i was Sober when i replied (kinda. i had thought my reply out wgile sober) #but the way im feelung is Not good cheif i am stoned off my ass #n i need to nap bx i do work tn #n i am Physicalky tired whicb is going to b Awful 4 me tmr if i dont m rest Neow . #but anyaay. ha #i uust . feel like im watching tbis play out Not in my life #like none of this feels fucking real this isnt happenibg to me. none of this has been . its gotta be Fake?