#i think it is a worthwhile question to ask like. does deloused (story and album)

[homophyte]

well i finished reading the de-loused story booklet

#the mars volta #jesus fucking christ that ending is bleak #idk if anyone else came away with that impression but #the whole of it is so out there that the final piece just...dragging your forcibly into #remembering that its abt a real persons real suicide is just really heartbreaking #i think it is a worthwhile question to ask like. does deloused (story and album) #work as a memorial to julio venegas #does it memorialize. does it do so in a way thats befitting #and honestly i went into reading it thinking 'no' but ive come away with a different impression #theres nuance in it but the gut punch of how barebones the last part is compared to the rest imo make a commentary on them #on the need to like. commodify death into something eclectic and enjoyable and intellectually stimulating and sufficiently weird #but then in the end its just a death. its a very painfully real death. #you dont get 'resolution' on what happens when he 'goes back' because theres no such thing. he dies #and then like....taking that in concert with ambuletz? as a piece separate from the album but functioning as its closer? whoof #its distressing and sad and real in ways i hadnt thought it attribute to the album itself before #and it kinda makes it all the more sad that the selling point of the album is 'morphine and rat poison' #that very knee jerk morbid fascination is exactly what it winds up critiquing #even as some of the earlier parts perpetuate it by being graphic in certain ways and like. trying to hook you on those points #idk its interesting im glad i read it. i may yet again #frances remains my main interest and im glad for it bc i think to a certain extent tearing into deloused with that kind of zealous rigor #is disrespectful to the very dead it seeks to show respect #uhm anyway back to being normal