#i think isolation on a boat can also be so fucking miserable its extravagant

[mochrincrunch]

ships (boats) are body horror and their intimacy with the ocean instills in me great unease

#i follow a ship watching account so i can experience dread like none other on the daily #they post a lot of docking and grounding incidents so im sure my peception of the genereal safety of either is heavily skewed #leveraging a rope against an anchor post to (semi?) manually dock a ship is insane #like they literally haul their body against the rope every few seconds while just yards of it fly through their hands to slow the progress #just the smallest amount #or watching people kick or hit the chains to get them going im just like girl #one link is heavier than your entire body #it takes nothing to destroy you beyond recognition #the way you only see the “tip of the iceberg” of the ship #the videos where the ship is at sea and rises with a wave while another builds on the horizon #but then they go over it and suddenly so much more ship is revealed and it begins to sink rapidly back down #while the wave in front of it crests above #the space between the haul and the tank is called the void and i think about whatd it be like to sit in their and listen #the day to day mundanity in such an abnormal space appeals to me greatly #i think isolation on a boat can also be so fucking miserable its extravagant #im coastal but at this point in time i would never consider going out on open ocean #i think id make a good lighthouse worker though #a bit in love with boats and the sea but firmly attached to land #tbc i also have 50% off feelings about the ocean