#i think i've just grown attached to its shape and weight in my hand

[maranull]

I think it's almost funny, in a bit of a sad way, that this tiny plastic (or wtv) thing has helped me more than all the therapists I've worked with combined. It has carried me through actual panic attacks, depressive episodes and hell, it was my most constant support during my first appointment for hrt.

Why pay thousands of euros and dozens of hours in therapy when you can give twenty five once and a bit of time rubbing its tiny head with your thumb? Checkmate therapists.

#melina adoring hours again #mini-meli adventures #i'm tired #mentally and physically #personal #i think this tiny figurine is weirdly the one thing that can actively ground me when i'm going through serious shit #i don't think this is even about it being a mini-meli anymore #i think i've just grown attached to its shape and weight in my hand #and after that first panic attack that it carried me through i have connected its feeling to safety or smt like that in my mind #just #weird where one might find help when it was never given #or smt #g'nighty