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mejomonster · 3 years

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(5) kxisid ok so theyre all suspicious of Xiaoge because he doesnt get scared in the tombs but like? Jcisikxis how funny would it be if Xiaoge was just a normal dude who reacted to uneasiness like i do, which is just burying all emotion? Like they think hes Up to Something or think that he has supernatural powers but really hes just a guy who dissociates when he gets scared

sameee. like if a real scary thing or disaster is happening i get completely calm and my emotions turn off. which like among other things does make it much easier to help whoever got injured/get them to doctor/call whoever to get called to fix a car/get ppl in danger away from someone violent etc. far as i can tell thats jsut?? some ppl be reacting to danger different lol. xiaoge is just alert and prepared and panic-off when dealing w danger like thats all guys

i mean he DOES have supernatural powers tho but that’s not the point

i mean idk they’re probably also like ‘he hasn’t said a word this whole trip, he’s not an archaeology student like us, i’ve never seen him and im in the 9 families, he doesn’t even have an id, who IS he why is he here’ - i am assuming you mean the past-expedition flashback being suspicious

i am also like. i feel like i read on the wiki that xiaoge is like 100+ but. i feel like i Also heard that’s only cause someone saw him in a pic from the 1920s so like i’m curious if. if i headcanon him to be like 500ish so i can write a period fic would it technically be canon compliant. like i really have no idea how long this man has been around, but it IS long enough he get viscerally murderous when a bitch brings up immortality. xiaoge runs into another immortal and its attack time. my Favorite scene for xiaoge in tlt1 is when they are ALL debating if its murder to kill the corpse that is ACTUALLY alive and sleeping and has been for centuries. And xiaoge’s like ‘he’s lived long enough’ and is immediately MURDER time and wu xie’s only real disagreement w him in the tomb like NO HE’S INNOCENT he didn’t do anything!! And xiaoge’s like ‘he lived too long’ and like xiaoge does end up killing him like.

if u put any immortal in front of xiaoge he gets bloodthirsty and So Angry and im sure part of that is self hate and not wantin to be alive anymore which mm. says a lot about his character that’s so unwilling to give details about himself up usually. But - it would be. A LITTLE funny. If xiaoge was ONLY like 100.

Like dude? you’re still an age living people are??? You don’t need to be mad about immortality yet like Calm down a little. Like if u treat wu xie REAL nice and get him decent doctors and out of the tomb raiding business after 60 he could possibly last to that age? Like. Xiaoge my dude. U don’t need this much immortal angst and self hatred when ur still technically around a regular human’s age? Like yeah ur younger than u expected to Look but there’s still time for a dangerous situation to kill u like have u seen ur job?

If Xiaoge is really 100 or under he is really putting So Much of this immortal-angst onto himself when like. He should go talk to some ppl his age and get some perspective maybe? Like he’s already like ‘people around me will get hurt’ and all the vampire emo nonsense angst and... he’s younger than a vampire.. dude’s still like grandpa age. (Unless he is like 200?)

Although to be fair to him. His immortality is also punctuated by repeated memory loss. So its not just being alive that stresses him out. It’s that he can’t hold onto anything because he forgets, he cant remember where he’s been or what he’s done or if he’s ever had consistent beliefs or morals or desires, he can’t hold onto memories of ppl he cares about and now he’s afraid To Care, people forget him because he leaves and slips away, so he has no connections to anything and i think it makes him scared and feel lost and like he’s always wading in too deep water. Like ppl can tell him he’s good, but he won’t ever know what he did 20 or X years ago and if its a lie. He can’t even be sure if what he did a few months ago was necessarily. It must be scary living his life and feeling so out of control of it. Like he can narrate this past-story to wu xie and pangzi. But he couldn’t even remember it until they went back into the tomb

So he couldn’t even confirm to himself if he was a killer or not until they got into the tomb and his memories got a little more accessible. And still, he remembers only some things and its foggy so. Like while we and him and wu xie want to assume he was a person who didn’t hurt others or wasn’t there for bad reasons, even xiaoge himself can’t really know for sure. And as we’ll find out later w san shu its immensely easy for ppl to gaslight a guy who can’t remember his own version of events clearly. which just sucks even more...

ur not gonna understand this yet but. eventually a guy named xie yuchen (one of wu xie’s ‘friends’) asks san shu about the past too, san shu’s dodgy Again. and i kinda hope wu yuchen goes dark on him to get an answer cause. someone needs to get a less dodgy answer maybe if they can. and xie yuchen certainly has enough power/influence to push a guy to maybe tell him a bit more than san shu will tell wu xie.

#replies #@keyhsahla #the lost tomb 2 #xiaoge #sorry 4 basically xiaoge meta but #i am both feeling for him and find him hilarious #like on the 1 hand his situation sounds pretty hellish #but on the other like how old IS he?#because hitting 100 with some memory loss #is sad but is also something regular people cope with #WITHOUT taking their anger out on other ppl and killing them so...#because xiaoge? he REALLY hates immortals #like if there's one thing he consistently will do #is if u PUT an immortal or older-than-should-be-alive person in front of him #he'll probably try to anihilate them #even if they didnt do anything #and its clear some of it must be self hate projected #but also some of it maybe he sees immortality as an awful curse #and just will NOT consider alternative viewpoints on it

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roomeight · 7 years

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I keep remembering something that Damon says a lot about his and Graham relationship, which is how much he is protective of him (ejem never liking the girlfriends) being like big brother but also saying that he used him also as a shield, how come? Do you have thoughts on that? Also you know the way Graham was treated all the time, like a child, being looked after always, but I also noticed the way everyone in the band got attached to Graham pretty quickly, almost in a paternal way? I dunno.

I'm glad you asked: I have some interesting theories on that, all of which could be wrong but is what I've come to based on facts/conclusions:Graham always talks about how when he went over to Damon's house, it was like this crazy, vastly different place full of culture and art and books that he only became aware of because of Damon. He even mentions that he found Hermann Hesse because of Damon, and given that he wrote the foreword to an edition Narcissus and Goldmund a few years back, I can only imagine that period of his life was very transformative for him.The second thing is, Graham comes from a military family, so that coupled with the fact he grew up in Thatcher's conservative Colchester (where Damon stuck out like a sore thumb) leads me to believe that his family was very conservative. Graham, to my knowledge, has never talked about his family in the press. Damon, by contrast, talked a lot about Hazel and his dad being a successful artist. Because of those things I can only conclude that (maybe) Graham felt like an outcast in his family given his interest in being in a band and being an artist. So his parents probably didn't like Damon very much, as Damon put it, "Graham was my only friend growing up, I was well disliked and beat up quite a lot." Not to mention Damon was and has always been overly touchy with him: Damon said that his family did not distinguish between gay and straight couples when he was a child so it wasn't weird to him to be affectionate to the same sex (translate that however you will).So I do think Graham suffered a bit for being Damon's friend (to what extend I will leave that up to other people to decide-I've heard rumors from fans that said they talked to him but I will not perpetuate them because they are based on hearsay and way too insensitive to assume). A lot of that could have led to Graham's drinking problem, usually an alcoholic is not an alcoholic for alcohol's sake-there's a source issue that it started with. So I think, with the whole "shield" thing, the band realized that Graham had been and continued to be kind of an unwilling victim in a lot of situations as he grew up. He was younger, which they held against him, he was notoriously mental (which caused lots of issues), and he may have felt more alone than the rest of them re: family...but I don't know. I also been told that Graham generally took Damon's position over his girlfriend's positions in arguments (again hearsay, so a grain of salt.) That's a whole lotta assumptions on my part so I don't expect anyone to agree. I empathize with Graham a lot, so I try to get in his mindset when I'm writing because he's the only musician I've ever identified with to a large extent. I'm not sure why, other than I think it's my Meyers Briggs personality type to intuitively interpret people maybe beyond what most ppl think is normal, haha. So not sure what that is worth, but that's my two cents.

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biobliterator · 7 years

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@synthzander made a super cool post answering questions abt her OCs and I got inspired to do it myself too!! I’m doing it for my five current faves. this is taken from @the-moon-dust-writings‘s post here!

-OC’s full name? Nix: Phoenix Eleanor Nova Rex: Bartholomew Alexander Achernar Orion: Orion Vela Io: Io Justine Pleione Ceres: Ceres Altair (Orion and Ceres don’t have middle names bc Orion picked his own name and didn’t want one and Ceres just straightup doesn’t care)

- Where were they born? Nix: Greece Rex: Scotland Orion: uhh I’m not 100% exactly sure yet but somewhere in South Asia Io: idk man Ceres: Rwanda i think!

- What accent and language do they speak in? Nix: kinda a mix between English and Greek accents, speaks English, Greek, and a bit of French Rex: Scottish accent, only speaks English Orion: his accent and first language depend on where exactly he was born so i need to figure that out, but other than that he speaks English, Spanish, and French fluently, and many many other languages less so. Io: Io doesn’t “”speak”” but they can only use English Ceres: his first language is Kinyarwanda, altho he hasn’t had the opportunity to speak it for years. And he’s close to fluent in English!

this got super long so i’m putting it under a readmore from here! (also i accidentally switched ceres’ and io’s positions w/o realising fdkg)

- What flaws do they have? Nix: g od where do i even begin w this question. she’s manipulative and can be cruel. she wants her own way and she wants it now and she’s not afraid to go to great lengths to get it Rex: mm Rex isn’t developed enough to have significant flaws yet, but he has major attachment issues and tends to be lazy Orion: my boy is perfect wym he avoids all his problems and will always take the easy route rather than helping anybody out, also keeps a lot of knowledge of other people that would be better shared w certain others Ceres: Ceres is a difficult one tbh, but he doesn’t have any interest whatsoever in helping anybody who isn’t himself or very close friends, and doesn’t care if he hurts other people Io: Io,, also is difficult? they make things harder for other people but that’s not their fault. yea idk Io is developed enough either

- What are things that they are good at? Nix: she’s very good at social situations and cheering people up! she’s also good at painting, photography, cooking, and is a talented engineer (she smart) Rex: video games his one true love.....he’s also a talented socialiser and good to have around in stressful situations bc he’s calm and level headed, AND he knows how to survive in the wilderness. Orion: music!! he’s a v talented musucian and singer. other than that he’s rly intelligent and can memorise almost anything - which includes the entire high school musical script. also he somehow makes friends super easily without realising how Ceres: his academic strong point is most definitely history. other than that he has a quiet way of being comforting? he notices the people he’s close to and is good at figuring them out without asking. he’s also REALLY good w animals Io: Io is pretty damn brilliant at building robots!! and they’re curious and are good at researching things they find interesting

- What are their pet peeves? Nix: ppl not taking things seriously when they should, rly loud music, ppl who don’t research before talking (basically her pet peeves are everything abt her younger self lmao) Rex: not listening when he’s trying to talk, disrespecting others’ interests, sore losers Orion: talking over him, being the punchline, being unwilling to change little things for him, chewing w ur mouth open Ceres: he only has one!: every single person on the entire earth Io: not even bothering to try and understand their way of communicating, putting salt on things

- What is something they do not respect? Nix: ppl who talk down on her friends Rex: biting straight into the kitkat Orion: ppl who needlessly state their negative opinion Ceres: ppl who are mean to spiders Io: spiders

- Could they survive on their own in a forest? Nix: maybe?? as long as it wasn’t for too long Rex: yea Orion: quite possibly? he might have the knowledge but idk if he could put it into practise Ceres: fairly sure he could Io: no

- Are they social with others? Nix: very!! Rex: yes Orion: a lot of the time! Ceres: no Io: yea

- Do they have good social skills? Nix: yes Rex: yes Orion: ..sorta? Ceres: hell no Io: mm not really

- What is their deepest darkest secret? Nix: she’s not as caring as she tries to make herself out to be Rex: idk he’s a pretty open book Orion: i think he keeps a lot of things secret, but knowing where his sister is and not finding her is prob a big one Ceres: his entire past p much? he doesn’t tell anybody shit Io: i think that they feel guilt over their existence sometimes. they try not to show it bc they don’t want people to worry but they need near constant care and can be difficult to live with.

- Do they have a guilty pleasure? Nix: probably alcohol. she tries not to drink bc she has to be responsible at all times but damn does she wanna get drunk Rex: h onestly i feel like he would be into dolls and things but too embarrassed to share it Orion: eating all the ice cream. all of it Ceres: he rly likes anime... Io: they have secret social media accounts where they shitpost near constantly

- How do they express their feelings? Nix: in violent emotional outbursts or silent crying at midnight Rex: he does his best to hold it in at all times but sometimes he’ll just cry Orion: he wears his heart on his sleeve and has frequent meltdowns Ceres: he Doesn’t Io: very much phsyically. if they’re feeling something, you’ll know

- How do they react when they are proven wrong? Nix: depends. if she likes the person she’ll apologise and move on, if not she’ll just get Angery Rex: he doesn’t argue or shout unless he’s CERTAIN he’s right, so usually he’s in a situation where he can just say “oh yeah thats a good point” Orion: with confusion, mostly. knowing things grounds him, so its disorienting when he’s wrong Ceres: he’ll clench his jaw and walk away Io: [text] wot

- How do they mourn? Nix: she’s the Responsible One™ so she does her best to stay strong, but she’s very likely to lose control and resort to reckless activities Rex: loudly and angrily Orion: he withdraws and sabotages himself Ceres: he withdraws too, even more than usual. he’ll just...sit and stare at the wall Io: they don’t? understand? like when are they coming back? where did they go bring them back??

- When would they back talk someone? Nix: whenever she’s given the opportunity lmao Rex: only if they’re REALLY pissing him off Orion: not very often. probably only when somebody is talking abt his friends bc he can process that quicker Ceres: he wouldn’t. he just wouldn’t respond Io: when ppl aren’t listening to them (or whatever listening is through text)

- Do they gossip? Nix: YES and then feels bad about it later Rex: only if he knows it’s not harmful Orion: nah Ceres: no Io: lmao yes

- Would they ever be able to forgive themselves if they did something horrible? Example - Murder Nix: i think maybe? depends on the circumstances Rex: he cant even forgive himself for WITNESSING a murder when he was a kid :/ Orion: if he can rationalise it, yea Ceres: good question. the answer is i have no clue Io: i think so. it’d have to have been extreme circumstances for it to happen so they’d handle it

- Do they care about themselves or others more? Nix: herself unless it’s her friends (she has many friends) Rex: others Orion: others but he knows he needs to care abt himself more :/ Ceres: himself UNLESS it’s somebody he’s super close to Io: others BUT they’ll put their own needs first

- How would other OCs describe them? Nix: abt Rex - a solid friend. he’s safe and lovable and the one person who doesn’t depend on her abt Orion - so talented? she’s so proud of him and knows he’s gonna go far abt Ceres - after living with him for a while, he’s actually really sweet. you don’t notice him, but he notices you abt Io - the most precious lil bean!! she adores io even if they can be frustrating sometimes Rex: abt Nix - pushes herself way too hard. she needs to learn to relax so she doesn’t snap abt Orion - a good friend who he can have a real deep intelligent conversation with. lots of people underestimate him but rex knows he has a LOT to offer abt Ceres - hoo boy.....hoooooooo boy.......... abt Io - he struggles to understand io but he’s trying. the more he understands the more shocked he is at the kinda shit they text him

Orion: abt Nix - has no idea where he’d be without her, but couldn’t rely on her entirely. he’s thankful she introduced him to, and is part of, a solid support system abt Rex - he honestly loves hanging out w rex. he has so many interesting stories. while orion is more of a thinker, rex is more of a doer, so together they get up to a lot abt Ceres - ceres was the first one of them he met. he rly likes ceres. he’s a good listener. orion would like to learn more about him but he doesn’t want to push abt Io - what he loves abt io is how much they understand each other and can laugh about it. while the others definitely try, they don’t fully understand what it’s like to live as an autistic, but io does.

Ceres: abt Nix - he wants to trust her. he really really want to trust her, but deep down he doesn’t. she needs to fully and truly open up for him to trust her, but for her to do that he has to open up himself, but for him to open up he has to trust her..... abt Rex - complicated emotions. rex needs to learn how to not be taken advantage of abt Orion - persistent, but he’s grateful. without orion he doesn’t know where he’d be, and he really loves to hang out w him, especially as he’s one of the few people that doesn’t ask questions or make things awkward abt Io - he likes doing Quiet Things with io. like playing chess, baking, reading. io isn’t generally a quiet person, so he’s grateful they spend their quiet times with him Io: abt Nix - possibly one of the best people ever? while they adore their parents, without nix there’s a lot of things they wouldn’t have gotten to experience abt Rex - confusing. not the first person they’d go to in a crisis, but not the last either abt Orion - trouble buddy!! they get into trouble together a lot its great abt Ceres - needs to brush up on his chess skills bc they trash him every time but needs to ease up on his monopoly and poker skills bc they want to win ://

- How would your OC describe themselves? Nix: damn bitch you live here?? Rex: constantly just trying to fix his own mistakes Orion: existential crisis with a violin Ceres: reeeallly doesn’t know what he’s doing here Io: um?? the best Obviously ;)

- How would you as the writer describe them? Nix: nix is my eldest, and i probably have the closest relationship with her. she pushes herself too much and it only sends her backwards. she’s in a difficult position bc she has people that rely on her and they need her, but she needs to look after herself too bc she’s only gonna end up hurting the people she cares about, not to mention herself. but honestly? i love her so much. i admire her desire to go out of her way to help people, and to understand people, and i’m so happy she’s found herself a family that love her and she loves back. Rex: my boy has come so far. he’s the youngest of the group, but he’s still over a year old by now and he’s changed so much. he has such a genuine desire to make everybody happy, but like w nix needs to look after himself too bc he’s going to make himself sick. i hope to god someday he finds reason and purpose in his life and that he’s happy. Orion: such a shining light. i remember almost killing him off as soon as i made him and i’m so glad i didn’t. he has a power that draws people to him, and just seeing him smile could brighten any day. he deserves the world. i know things can be difficult for him, and people can be mean and say mean things, but he handles it so well and i am so proud that he’s found his family and he’s going to stick by them no matter what. they’re going to help him rise to the top and allow him to achieve his dreams, and he’s going to keep them with him when he does. Ceres: boyo...sweet boyo........this whole mess wasn’t his fault, no matter how much he believes it was. there’s no way he could have known what would have happened when he ran off w the promise of excitement and adventure. but yknow what it his fault? taking a chance and making a friend and it turning out w him having a family who’ll defend him to their graves. Io: my baby’s been through so much dramatic development recently, and is finally getting the attention they deserve. they’ve had a lot of luck in their life, and they’re starting to realise just how many things could have gone wrong so far, and the next step is realising that they absolutely deserve those things, and that they shouldn’t try and give things back out of obligation, but out of love.

- How well do they know their own limits? Nix: nix..knows her limits, but being a caregiver means she has to push them a lot even when she doesn’t want to. Rex: he doesn’t know his limits at all. he’s constantly finding himself at limit’s end and being unable to get out of it. Orion: he mostly knows his limits? sometimes he chooses to push them, but he’ll fight for his right to stay within them Ceres: oh nah he has no idea, and he doesn’t want to find out either Io: io knows their limits and refuses to have them pushed

that’s it and i just wanna say that if you read this far i admire your tolerance and i adore you

#this took me so so so so so so long to write #literally HOURS #pls read it i love my children #nix #rex #orion #ceres #io

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