#i suppose i did watch yt as if they werent quite real but a form of entertainment whereas i saw musicians as artists?

[mihai-florescu]

But truly stanning real life idols is so wild to me... they dont even have a narrative purpose, thats just a person...

#saw a thread of 'kpop idols with the most natural personalities' and it made me think...reflect i guess #i like the music i just dont understand the appeal of caring for musicians personalities #i tried to force myself back in my bandom days but i couldnt make myself care enough... #i did have actual parasocial relationships with youtubers but that feels different #will be reflecting on it further as i unwind for the day... #i think the yt thing mightve been related to the fact that i was 13. but i got into the emo trinity then too musically so #theres something else #hmm #i suppose i did watch yt as if they werent quite real but a form of entertainment whereas i saw musicians as artists? #not sure