#i spent the last week of 2022 realizing I was anemic again after being too tired to see family & friends the whole time theyve been in town

[samwisefamgee]

sure, being the biggest idiot Alive has some drawbacks but it also causes me problems

#happy new yeeeeeear #i spent the last week of 2022 realizing I was anemic again after being too tired to see family & friends the whole time theyve been in town #yaaaaaaaay #and being too broke to go to the new years formal all my friends are at lol #i mean to be fair as much as I’d like to see em a formal dress party by definition and nature is only allowed to get so lit #and if I’m at a new years party I kinda wanna like party party and not just fucking sit around housing the charcuterie board making chat #that said I def would like to be somewhere but here. too tired. just too tired #they should invent a new years that waits for me to have iron in my blood again #on the bright side I’m absolutely fuckin blowing it socially rn so there is no bright side! i am meant to be cast out like the moldy sponge #there’s like a three year grace period where people want to be my friend then a two year period where they realize it’s dumb as hell #and this cycle takes place in perpetuity #at least for the clowns that keep hanging out with me at all #i have entered a phase in the cycle known as Dark Sam in which all the friends who might ask me to meet up for brunch while they’re in town #are fully not interested in spending their sparing time in this town they hate with some high school buddy. and who could blame them??? #so it’s been a bit of a quiet end of the year comparatively despite everyone being around. and the few chances I HAVE had to go out #I’ve just been dead tired #if I’m lucky I’ll find more ways to stop my life from getting smaller in the new year #i wasn’t too lucky this time round or the time before or the time before so here’s hoping !! #the fireworks are so loud