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#i spent so many days in a row wanting to punish myself by doing reckless shit like drinking heavily or dojng drugs i dont even do
landofgay
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me at 15: I think I have ADHD and autism and ocd and bpd and and and
me at 17: nah I was being silly I don't really have most of those things. maybe ADHD.
me now at 22: yeah no I have ADHD and autism and ocd and bpd and
#like genuinely the only explanation for my behavior the last week or so is BPD
#i flipped out and pushed my bf away emotionally cause i assumed he would wanna break up with me
#i have rapid weird mood swings
#i spent so many days in a row wanting to punish myself by doing reckless shit like drinking heavily or dojng drugs i dont even do
#my usual one is overworking myself at work which ismt good either
#the ocd i know i have now cause its just reassurance type ocd which explains so much
#the more i talk to my bf who is also most likely autistic the more i realize i am definitely autistic
#which is funny when i remember when i was a kid and learned about autism and was like 'omg itd be so scary if i had that and didnt know'
#i definitely have always had depression and anxiety
#only just now realizing my depression is so bad i really do need anti depressants
#cause i cant make any decisions or do anything without thinking im a terrible person and wanting to punish myself somehow
#which is just. fucked
#i cant make a mistake without thinking im worthless
#and pushing everyone out of my life so they dont have to deal with me but then being miserable that i pushed them away
#and then spiralling from there
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