#i run away from every conversation idk what to say im jjsgbf coward .

[xamaxenta]

mmmmmmmmmm self esteem doko

#ending the day the weekend once again with the sensation of hopelessness #but as always therapy and medication is expensive #digging about for self confidence like i can do this right???? right??! #the #paralysing fear of failure but whos calling it a failure #anyway this vodka was a fucking mistake #if theres any substance out there that turns me into a depressed mush is this #aaaaUaggHhGhGhahgshsbskahsnxosndd fucking hell #anyway time to like slsep this off and pretend im super ok. #AAH i swear im gonna get a diagnosis idk what i have but i definitely got something #money tho #!!! #!;!&;’dkaonsndbcoxchnfnf #i think too much about kms but im never gonna do it bc im a chicken #which is great bc my gf cares about me and i care about her #but im such a fucking piece of garbage otherwise #traaaaaaaahhhhsshhshshghh animal #im just a fuckjgn mess of a person who cant keep friendships or relationships because i cant talk to people like a normal person im sorry #i run away from every conversation idk what to say im jjsgbf coward . #im like haha !!! ace this ace that but then meaningful relationship starts outside of fandom yknow #i . xhdh. #is it normal to cry alot but then you feel absolutely nothing like youre aware this is a cleanse #periods of crying every single day but then months where its like ooh you dont deserve to.