#i remember being like ‘uh so there’s no chance that i have like hypothyroidism right’

[crystallllines]

i don’t think this single occasion of consuming both broccoli and soy products for the first time since finding out i shouldn’t be eating them is why i have a migraine, but it is. suspicious. somewhat.

anyway, migraine is bad, not enjoying, obvi. probably gonna hit the hay in 20 min. just taking notes here so i remember things to bring up with endocrinologist. this is a new experience for me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#god i have missed broccoli so much tho #just fucking shove it in my mouth #also i just want to point out that i literally asked my doc if i had a thyroid disorder when i saw him in idk august? september? like #that’s why we had the whole eating disorder chat!!! #i remember being like ‘uh so there’s no chance that i have like hypothyroidism right’ #and he was like ‘what?? uh… do you have any reason to believe you have hypothyroidism?’ #and i said ‘well no but. idk. sometimes i wonder if i have a thyroid condition. or pcos.’ #’does anyone else in your family have a thyroid disorder or pcos?’ #’no well actually i don’t know but i know a lot about my family’s medical history so i’d likely know if they did #idk it’s just an odd suspicion I’ve had friends with both and yeah i know they’re very different things but there are some similarities.’ #‘oh… no… you don’t have one.’ #I’m not blaming him! #he might’ve looked if i’d asked him to or suggested that i had reason to suspect it! #i mean i guess i did. have reasoon. that being the fact that the er doc listened to my lack-of-blood rambling about my Bodily Concerns & #i guess he told me he was going to check for hypothyroidism just based on that uncensored spiral of blather that supposedly went on #idk i don’t remember him asking i just remember him coming in the next day and being like ‘ok so you’re not gonna die but jsyk you really #must not take nsaids and must stay on the protonix if you don’t want this to happen a third/fourth? time #and you also do have hypothyroidism. no that blue pill this morning was not your klonopin it was synthroid #please don’t try to dissolve your synthroid under your tongue anymore.’ #jack filled me in about whatever happened in the er because i can remember a whopping 2 things: walking over to the scale (which i guess i #started falling off of? Idk!) and holding Jack’s hand #oh I also remember seeing the lady who did my last endoscopies! #dr. plotkin? idk i call her dr. new britain’s amy adams #wait i also remember emailing my profs that i might not be in class on monday bc i was bleeding internally & needed to be hospitalized #and also texting nora that ‘they sautered me up!’ after my ulcer was cauterized