#i really should start an aelin tag for myself smh

[probsnothawkeye]

For the pride asks, 7, 9, 10, and 35 beloved 💕

7) What made you pick your name?

I was working on a writing project and thought about giving my character the name Pine for Symbolic ReasonsTM (basically he was pining after a life he knew he could never have) and as I continued to work on the project I realized I *really* liked the name so I stole it for myself and changed her name (kept he/she/they pronouns for the character though they deserved that)

9) What names have you considered using?

Pine was the first "oh shit I'm queer" name i chose for myself but when I was younger I always liked the name Lucinda and thought about taking that for myself when I went to college. At some point that felt too feminine for me to want though and well Pine happened <3

10) When did you realize you weren’t cishet?

Gonna break this down label by label lmao

Ace: I realized I was ace when I was 15. I saw a post on tumblr describing asexuality and went "oh shit i think thats me" and have used the label ever since

Bi: I realized I was bi when I was 21. I was living mostly alone (I avoided common spaces as much as possible) in Dublin during the pandemic and it gave me the room I needed to think and to process. The thought originally entered my mind after a couple dreams I had featured me getting a girlfriend and then started to solidify when Jonny Sims talked about how he realized he was bi during a stream. After a lot of panic thinking and consulting my best friend (who is also bi) i realized the label fit

Nonbinary: A few months after I figured out I was bi I was watching a *different* Jonny Sims stream and one of my comments (or maybe it was a ko-fi? I can't remember) was read out and he had referred to me with they/them pronouns because Internet AnonymityTM. And that kept happening in more streams I watched, people using they/them for me since they didn't know my pronouns and I realized I *really* liked it. So I decided to use she/they at first thinking I was just ExperimentingTM while also gender crisis-ing and talking to my other trans/enby friend and she helped me figure out im nonbinary

35) Do you have a type in partners?

Physically? Not really. What makes people pretty in my mind is truly an enigma to me. But I know I like people who are nice. People who are fun to talk to and don't make me feel judged. Funny isn't at the top of my list but it does help 😅 I guess I really just like people I can talk to, people who make time for me in the same ways I make time for them. Tbh I'm not sure this constitutes a type but well its the answer I've got

#thanks for the ask!! #exactly-myself #i really should start an aelin tag for myself smh #need an aelin tag an ami tag a mad tag all the friend tags #pine throws thoughts into the void of tumblr