#i really dont wanna be lonely

[longelk]

shit poopoo palette reqs part 1 #fun #fun #fun #fun

#if you sent a request with one of these chars OR paletes feel free to send a NEW request with diff ones #cause i dont really wanna do repeats of anything and so many requested thr same char (p03 LOL) and same palettes #p03 #magnificus #goobert #lonely wizard #inscryption #my art #fanart #welcome to the world baby goobert i havent drawn you before #eye strain #making stuff look bad on purpose is so freeing

[guardian-angle22]

911 Lone Star | Paul Strickland & Asha Fulton at the Tarlos Wedding

#911 lone star #911lsedit #paul strickland #asha fulton #!!!!!!!!!!!! ahh i just wanna scream about them tbh #that last one tho #dyinggg at the head touch #my gifs #i dont know what i was doing with the coloring here i was half delirious when i made these they dont really look like they all match #episode: s04e18 in sickness and in health

[cremechees]

goodnight, kristen.

alternate versions with less (and no) flowers and no planets

#kristen wright #arknights #明日方舟 #lone trail #i literally cried when reading the epilogue so here u go #sleepy woman!!! #dog goes space #DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW MUCH PAIN THIS PUT ME THROUGH #I STILL AM UNSURE ABOUOT THE FLOWERS IT LOOKS REALLY BUSY BUT I WANTED THEM TO BE IN THERE #my friend said theyre peonies. i cant tell #ALSO I SCRATCHED MY TABLET UP SO BAD SOMEHOW #DO I NEED A NEW ONE BUT IVE HAD THIS ONE FORE YEARSSSS I DONT WANNA GET A NEW ONE

[todayisafridaynight]

puffer party inspo'd by the fact i've had this fic rotating in my head for the past week

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #ryu ga gotoku 2 #yakuza series #yakuza 2 #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #masadai #daigo dojima #masato arakawa #snap sketches #sorry not over it . dont think i ever will be </3 #gen one of my fave fics of all time now.. its everything and more OUUUGHH IM USING MY TAGS TO GUSH SORRY EVERYONE #i just really love how daigos tryna be nice... like i like that despite him bein in his dirtbag era he still has a good heart #that always my fave thing bout him and- and //cries// #he wanna swear off people but i know he dont mean that.. i know he lonely inside.. so when he tries to make it work with masato.. #OGH im gona go off on another tangent if i think of that point for too long POINT IS #this fic still make me giddy it still make me do a silly leg wiggle #ive been meaning to draw masato in daigo's jacket again since the first time since i didnt really like how i did it initially #PHENOMENAL excuse to do so now hehe.. #now excuse me i have to think of this fic while drawing another masato comic. cause im ill

[grey-has-rusted]

what they don't tell you about life is that it's hard. woe is me

#ramblings #yes. i logged onto tumblr just to complain. #i have not been having a good time irl </3 #guys am i cooked? i wake up everyday with a heavy sorrow in my heart. #i am sad all the time even though i enjoy the wonders of life. #i laugh and smile and talk and learn. but im still sad. #it also doesn't help that i have psychotic tendencies and episodes #'go for a walk. that's a healthy coping mechanism' bro i can't even go outside bc i will get lost and walk for hours and almost- #unintentionally kill myself #it sucks. it all sucks and i say things that don't make sense either. apparently. allegedly. #i just want a functional brain. i would be so unstoppable if it weren't from my brain maybe i could actually function like a normal person #and hold down a job and be consistent with my hobbies and passions and actually maintain friendships #ong ive been so lonely too #i haven't bothered making friends anymore bc i know i won't be consistent and i dont wanna waste anyone's time #that's just really unfair #and i rely so heavily on videogames and fiction to get me through the day #bc it makes me feel less lonely. yeah i know i sound lame 💀 #anyways- see y'all in another year when i remember tumblr exists

[sunshades]

One thing about canto VI is like. I see so many people predicting it'll be about Fighting Evil Wife or Breaking Codependent Toxic Relationship and I just kinda think that would suck? If the major theme isn't grief AND love and the way both are seen as like Kinda Weird/inappropriate in the setting of the city. Then I'll be very sad.

#bell.txt #not putting it in the tag i dont wanna spam but yes limbus posting yes girls will be thinking about mortal regret #LIKE. LIKE. remember the discourse on twt about how like it was bad writing that yi sang didnt mourn dongbaek etc #and like that was the thing right. thsts not a thing you do in the city. that was part of why roland (who takes lots after wh's themes) #was so exceptional. that is the whole thing about the sickness of the city #to say it in comedia literary criticism terms: sins are split between wrongly-directed love and excess of love with sloth (lack of love) #being an outlier. i think heatho and generally og wh is about excess of love and not wrongly-directed love. it is the thing that lasts #all the way to the other side. it is the shared coffin and meeting again in the next life #i think itd be AWFULLY disappointing to get some boring boring 'they make each other worse' take. being APART due to societal pressures #makes them worse and horribly lonely. death makes them worse baby. so in my mind thats it #we get to see cathy die or still be unreachable in some way and then in very roland style we get furioso mode #and then the ending is about recognizing the love that has in fact been there all along and carrying it with u. and hoping to reunite some #where some other time. NO more slander of that awful girl. YES to the comfort of the memories. #me typing over my foscolo notes like i can surely post about heathcliff really fast and not write a novel in the tags (unaware) #i have more thoughts about this in regards to ruina with xiao and some stuff from leviathan but in the meantime. listen to my ramblings boy #ALSO. considering that implication. he feels for her what queequeg feels for ishy. ARGHH. RIPPING MY HAIR OFF #ok actually its been enough hours to not spam ppl I'll tag it now for blog org. i should maybe have a tag for posting specifically #limbus company

[standfucker]

not gonna lie yall, it feels like all I do is either work or recover from work and it's bumming me out big time

#I don't have a chronic illness. I shouldn't be taking this long to recover #idk why I can't get home from work and go straight to writing #it's like I have to spend a day mustering up the will to live in the face of ongoing capitalism #it's my own fault. I would have had a two day weekend but they asked me to come in to cover someone and my clown ass said sure #I want to be pissed at the coworker who called off but it's my own fault for accepting #I had a phone interview today and I am ANXIOUS to know if they're going to bring me in for a second interview I NEED a better job #I just want a job where I dont dread going to work and also maybe get paid more than minimum wage #feeling really depressed about capitalism and working forever and knowing I'll never be able to afford a house #I WANT TIME TO DO MY HOBBIES GOD DAMN IT ;A; #also im lonely as hell. how am I supposed to go out and meet people if I'm too tired to do anything #I wanna meet someone. I wanna be loved romantically.

[henrioo]

I kind of really wanted a QPR (queer platonic relationship)

But besides the fact that I don't know anyone and trust her enough for that

I kind of don't trust myself enough for this and I'm sure the relationship would end in a week

I think it's better for me to stay single

Having said all that

Can😩 we 🤷🏻‍♀️ pretend 👀 that ✨ the 💞 airplanes ✈️ in 💥 the 👁️ night 🌙 sky 🌌 are 🔪 like 💞 shooting 📸 stars ⭐ I 🥺 could😔 really😢 use👊 a⚡ wish✨ right👉 now💫 wish✨ right👉 now💫 wish✨ right👉 now💫 wish✨ right👉 now💫

please guys gay men boys dm me I want to flirt with someone and hope for a relationship and a future together only for everything to go wrong and I have eternal regret thanks

#henri talk #qpr #aroace #queer platonic relationship #i want a relationship #but not really want #i just want flirt a little #i'm kinda lonely #and single #but i don't wanna date #i just wanna a boyfriend #who is at the same time not my boyfriend #just my best friend #but still my boyfriend #that's dont make sense #it's that hormones?

[sensitivegoblin]

I'd do anything to have a teasing voice in my ear

#I'm not even craving the actual tickles or sex I just want the teasing affection relentlessly flustering me🥺✨🦋💕 #there was this cute guy who kinda flirted with me at the grocery store and I can't stop thinking about him since #I just... #I dunno #I feel like I'm just never gonna get what I need #that soft teasing loving affection #I want someone who loves to fluster me as much as I love being flustered #I dunno I'm just really sad and lonely and I feel like I can't talk to anybody because this is all I want #the only thing that's gonna make me happy is this soft tender love that I dont think I'm made for #people don't really look at me and go 'I wanna make them talk more or get close to them' #I dunno how to say it #it's really hard talking to people #I'm stuck on how to word why #but I want one spefic thing and it's hard not having it #I wanna feel someone pull me close I want them to WANT me near them they WANT to fluster me #this is why I want a partner so bad #I need a certain closeness that nobody has wanted to give me yet #I have amazing friends but I feel bad talking to you when all I want is basically sex (the verbal teasing) #I'm so mentally and emotionally wounded #and sex is the only thing that makes it feel better #I just wish it was real instead of me maladaptive day dreaming it #nothings real and I just...I think I'm not the type of 'girl' to get this consensually intrusive attention/affection #I'm just feeling stuck and lonely and empty

[coelacat]

the three ways to make me INSTANTLY dislike you:

unironically call an animal (or any living thing rly) "useless" because if it exists there is inherently use for it. thats how evolution works dumbass

"art is dead"/"theres no good art anymore"/i dislike modern art"/"i could paint/write/sculpt that"/any variation of some bullshit about how any sort of art is lesser than another

"i think anyone who believes in religion is stupid and should be embarrassed" and im especially deadass about this one. it puts you in such a bad mindset its not even funny. you can hate bigots all you want and the way bigotry may intersect with religion is always an interesting study but. genuinely. if you hate religion AS A WHOLE for just. like. being a reflection of a population. i think you seriously need to get your head checked.

#i think the religion one is probably the most controversial but it really shouldnt be #the universe is scary #it can be so scary to think about how everything is just a dice roll. youre only here because of random chance. #no shit people dont wanna think about that #its grim! #its much more comforting to have a higher power who put you here with a purpose than to just be some ape that became bipedal #and evolved a big brain from there #and now we're doing taxes n shit #like!! i get why some people would be freaked out about that and would hate thinking about it #not to mention religion has a giant history and its always been more than just believing in higher powers #religion can be a large group of peoples history #i really love looking into and learning about judaism for this reason #religion is so interwoven with history and tradition and folk tales have been a driving force of human socialization for forever #another thing is that i think a lot of people forget that religious people are. p. people. even if its a religion you hate for good reason #im not gonna defend mormonism. lol. but people tend to forget that the mormon church wants you to be an asshole to mormons #thats kinda how the whole thing operates? creating a fear of the unknown and outsiders? #same as any cult #sorry for all of this i just saw a really awful post #idk. is it that hard to just be nice to people and not assume everyone around you is an idiot #because thats gonna make you hate people and then make you lonely #id know because ive been there #if dnis worked i think these three things would be the only things on it #theyre the people i dont wanna engage with the most. mostly because theyre annoying

[guardian-angle22]

911: Lone Star Rewatch -> Favorite Moments | Paul & wildlife in S2E3  

#911 lone star #paul strickland #tw: blood & injury #911ls rewatch: fave moments #did i have to really dig deep for a fave moment in this ep? kinda lol #ngl i do love the classic judd line of 'dumbass and dumbass-er' but i just dont wanna gif the og #so instead we get more of the best ever: paul strickland #the coloring of this episode was a giant pain in my ass also #my gifs #episode: s02e03 hold the line

[himejoshikaeya]

hey guys i converted to christianity again

#cacophony of kaliya #/ srs btw #its been smth ive been thinking about lately and how *lonely* i felt as an atheist #idk. theres just some sort of peace that comes with knowing that theres a higher being up there who has a plan for me #obviously im not going to be a homophobic zionist bible humper or Christian liberal lmao #im still the same person but just. happier. more at peace really #its okay if u dont wanna be mutuals anymore #even if we stop being friends/mutuals i hope you will find happiness in whatever path you take <3

[subarucarthief]

what really gets me is i’ve expressed how lonely i am to the ppl i care about and they reassure me that we can hang out if i ask and then i ask and they don’t wanna hang out

like that’s pretty cool to me

#I don’t even do it during the day or during the week when ppl are busy #i ask for like. an evening or sometime during the weekend #and usually If we even hang out it’s only for an hour or two and it feels like it was a chore for them #idk how much of that is my own insecurity bc i have also expressed that spending so much time alone has made me insecure #or if i just suck to be around #like. i can’t just go out and make friends like my other friends can #and that’s why they’re so busy in their free time #i try but i get so uncomfortable with new people. i really try to make an effort and be palatable but i dont know that i am #i’m not myself when i’m around new ppl bc i’m worried me being myself is what’s making my friends not wanna be around me #and it’s Exhausting trying to figure out what’s okay and not okay in new social groups #the effort just drains me and belive it or not! it defeats the purpose of trying not to be lonely #and christ do i feel really fucking lonely and unlikable! #i like actually haven’t even seen another person this whole day and my roommate has been here the whole time #vent

[widevibratobitch]

aaaaaaand it's starting. mom's bestie just texted me asking to come over this weekend cause it's Bad and it's probably the last chance to talk and maybe say goodbye to my mom's husband and i need to take care of her. god. i wont get through this weekend unless im high or drunk istg.

#time to slightly overdose my depression meds again ig lol #anyway. it is a little better with me these last two weeks. turns out the meds do work when you actually take em regularly #but first my best friend's break up that she's blowing up to unimaginable size #acting as if she just got divorced with the love of her life after 20 years #and not ended a few months long relationship with a guy who's been the source of most of her troubles since the moment they started dating #(ofc she's valid and id never tell her that because like. i get it. some people feel stuff more deeply. but its hard to be supportive #when you genuinely feel like this is the best possible outcome for her and that the relationship was only dragging her down all this time) #and now this. and this is gonna be infinitely worse. and then it's gonna get a million times worse when he actually does die. #and i feel like the worst most selfish person ever which like. probably am. but i did tell my cousin who actually knows my mom really well #and she said she understands and that my fears ARE valid because SHE'S terrified of how she's gonna handle my mom #and she wouldn't wanna be me in that situation cause it's gonna be so much worse for me lmao #like i feel like people who know my mother casually really dont understand just how unhinged emotionally she is #anyway. i feel so overwhelmed. i cant handle this jesus. #but im also emotionally unavailable and refuse to actually confide in another person because i dont want to be a bother <3333 #god i love tumblr. i can literally type anything in those tags lol it's the perfect form of venting since you can just scroll by #but i will still have let it out of myself anyway uwu i literally dont need that therapy fr #anyway. i feel so unbelievably fucking lonely and on one hand it's my own fault for withdrawing and refusing to ask for help. #but on the other hand. i AM alone. like there's no one who can help me in this particular situation. #i have no siblings. obviously my dad isnt gonna help. it all falls down to me. good god. i wanna throw up.

[urtotallysanefriendtetra]

Sorry for like

Not existing alot recently-

Depression is getting worse, physical health is also getting worse

But its okay because my sheer amount of coolness will get me through this

#not neg #im sorry i dont interact w ppl often- id still really appreciate if you all keep interacting with me tho #cuz even if i dont respond i still read everything :3 #u can always tag me in stuff or send me asks whether they be about me . jsab or just some random other thing u wanna tell me !! #ive just been feelin a little lonely so any interaction is appreciated <3

[nerosdayinanime]

welp. fuck. gonna make another sabigiyuu animation bc im once again hit w how well Welcome Home fits w them

#loserboy giyuu posting #i have another little snippet i really wanna fuckin make #one of those modern aus but they remember their past lives #im thinking they remember when they turn the age they died originally #sabito had a weird bit when they were younger snd he got really defensive but giyuu didnt pay it much mind. #then giyuu turned 25 and he runs out to sabito who smiles at him- turning a little melancholy and apologetic when he notices giyuus state #giyuu crushes him in a hug that he returns just as fiercely- a silent apology and promise to never let go again #A U GH IM GONNA FUCKING CRY #god sabigiyuu hurts my fuckin soul #something something desperation loss broken promises lonely hearts clinging to eachother #sabigiyuu #'you were never supposed to leave- now my head's splitting at the seams' 'and i dont know if i can...' #<not the bit i wanna animate but O U GH #man..............