#i need to go to bed early tonight im knackered ough. at least its the weekend now yayyyyyyyyyyyyy. i should start bg for REAL

[toastsnaffler]

white knuckling the table as the conversation topic turns to trauma so I don't immediately start oversharing everything wrong with me even though I really really want to bc this is a conversation direction that so rarely ever comes up and even when it does its usually with people who are unlikely to understand it at all but this time I get the feeling that maybe there's some shared understanding to be had and I don't want to scare her off or make it all abt me but maybe there's a little catharsis close at hand and 😐😐

#maybe tomorrow ill try and find a smooth way to be like hey girl.... whatever trauma is made of..... yours and mine are probably wildly- #different but maybe symptomatically express in similar ways so theyre possibly compatible enough to at least empathise with each other umm #how would u like to sit down and quiver like a chihuahua and cry a bit with me. girls night :-) #but also i dont want to dig if she doesnt want to talk any more abt it bc its such a personal thing. but she did say it had been- #on her mind a lot lately so maybe it would help to have someone listen i promise i wont self centre the convo or interrupt 50000 times 🥹 #and even when i do its bc talking abt my own experiences is my way of showing i understand and want u to know ur not alone AUUUOOUURGHHH #but also maybe she doesnt know me well enough i def dont know her well enough to share a lot of things. but if we have. some common ground #then maybe!!!!!!!!!! theres something. to be said. and i would quite like to say some things. so ummmmmmyeah anyway #i need to go to bed early tonight im knackered ough. at least its the weekend now yayyyyyyyyyyyyy. i should start bg for REAL #.diaries