#i miss my cousins but for my own wellbeing im not doing that shit. i cut you off you are cut off until you not only apologize but actually

[lightningfilledsaber]

Girl I fucking hate christmas

#pet death and family drama warning #mud rambles #i know it's not christmas day but. this time of year jfc #my mom's new puppy just fucking died #and now shes asking me to go to dinner with an aunt i literally cut contact with. and apparently this aunt specifically asked me to come?? #i dont wanna cause even more stress to my mom rn but like. no?? #that woman made me cry at a goodbye party for my brother moving in w his dad in another state by telling me that my grandmother who i had #cut off had every right to deadname and misgender me?? because she loves me she can do that apparently?? (her reasoning) #the aunt who still refuses to even use my fucking name much less my pronouns?? the aunt who wont allow me to tell her kids im trans bc #'it will confuse them'??? the aunt who still hasnt fucking apologized??? #not to mention her and her predator husband are racist as fuck #like that was literally the first of the two reasons i cut my grandmother off for. being racist and unwilling to change. you think im just #gonna ignore that?? be ignorant somewhere else #pet death #pet death mention #fucking hate december #fucking hate winter #this time of year sucks so bad. this bullshit happening when this time of year is already shitty for other reasons. fucking hate it here #idk but im not playing the 'dont talk to me anymore actually nvm u wanna see your kids' thing my family does with each other #i miss my cousins but for my own wellbeing im not doing that shit. i cut you off you are cut off until you not only apologize but actually #fucking change. no half assed shit