#i mean genuinely whatever im a pretty responsible lad and ill be in good hands

[mistergoddess]

hmm yeah in 2 weeks exactly from this moment i will be on a plane overseas for the first time ever in my life and i have put exactly zero thought into any of that like what i'm packing how i'm packing when i'm packing what i'm packing in how i'm getting to the airport what my next move is on a whole ass other continent after getting off the plane or even just. idk. general mental preparation. lmao.

i mean it's the uk and i am not solo traveling beyond the flight there so it's not that serious but fuck i have been head empty i can't even sort out getting a phone plan which i have exactly five days to do lmfaooo let alone all that. eugh. whatever. fuck it we ball mentality.

#shitpost.txt #i mean genuinely whatever im a pretty responsible lad and ill be in good hands #and ive done way wilder shit on much less #but im also an anxiety riddled beast who has bad experiences with said way wilder shit #silly ass situations i like to find myself in n my brain is fully developed now but eheheuhuheh #i do not enjoy the feeling of fuck it we ball big ass moves pertaining to such whacky goofball mode situations #i don't enjoy finding myself in a Situation in general but euhh ill be ok itll be good and fun and cool #and i will look back and be like man that was a silly situation huh glad i did it and it all worked out #but mmmmmmm :| hmmmmmmmmm #i sure do get myself into undeniable verified situations and not saying it's a bad thing #but I don't love a situation and I don't love my tendency to be like yeah that's fine i'm up for that @ a situation #unfortunately situations are good for u as a person and doing things outside ur comfort zone leads to good things too #and it's important to do stuff but AAAAAああああああああああああ #i agree to situations and then once im in them i have a hard time navigating them very well #and my life has a tendency for things to go a bit UH OHH just based on all previous examples #so it is hard to tell myself i'll do ok with it all