#i love saying i’m queer full knowing i’m probably aroace but refuse to label myself as such bc i’m scared that i’ll be wrong ab it and

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#miles thots #i love saying i’m queer full knowing i’m probably aroace but refuse to label myself as such bc i’m scared that i’ll be wrong ab it and #there’s no way i can br wrong ab being queer bc no matter what kind of attraction i do or don’t experience it’s still inherently queer bc of #my gender #but also bc i’m scared of missing out on both the sex and romance and i want it and to not be able to feel either but especially romantic #attraction sounds terrifying even though it’s probably my reality and every time i think ab it i feel like im grieving something i’ve never #had to begin with #AND #im terrified of using the label bc my friends hardly ever treat me like an adult bc im the youngest and autistic and im scared if im also #aroace then they’ll always see me as a kid #and the thing is sex sounds/looks fun and i’d like to try it but im so incredibly unattracted to EVERYONE. the thought of ME being with #anyone makes me feel sick. and same with relationships- cute on the outside and i love the idea of them but every time i try i feel gross #okay i’m done sorry for the rant