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November 14 2019

I saw L(my tc) walking down the stairs then I saw a gay teacher using a grey binder covering his face when saw L walking by the turned to his friend and mouted “OMG WHO IS THAT?” L teaches English apparently I was known that English is my major which made him liking me instantly isn’t weird. I tend to play the ‘teacher’s pet’ as a first impression though with him I couldn’t really speak up at that point I had no idea why (because you’re developing feelings for him bitch) anyway mostly there were eyes contact I used to have crushes on teacher like, a lot and I know that it’s nothing but suffering so when I saw his gorgeous face ‘nope’ comes to mind I tried to point out every bad thing about him and all the cons (I was in a relationship at that moment) then there was this one time I shared my answer (an idea?) which he really likes like REALLY LIKES which he kept complimenting me like crazy basically he complimented me through our that whole period. Then December 1st came my relationship ended normally I’d be begging people to stay but this one the moment they texted ‘I think we should break up..’ ‘k’ was what I sent and just like that it’s over my best friend we’re kinda shook that I sacrificed my relationship for him but at least now i can check him out whiout it being wrong (according to the rules of relationship NOT THE LAW) anyway its kinda like he knew I was single or something we were supposed to have a test but the day before it he came to me touched my shoulder and said good luck on your test I was shook because every single crushes I’ve ever had barely anyone has ever interacted with me not in an obvious way normally but then boom that happened, I panicked so “Um teacher do you watch stranger things?” Came our I didn’t expected him to watch it since it’s not really mature but then “I live stranger things!” Came out of his lips ‘omfg we have the same fucking interest’ was what came accros my mind so ‘bro! He watches stranger things!’ A guy friend I was close to and basically everything was a blur take it as this I kinda gave him the thought that I’m lesbian and that I hate him but obviously that thought didn’t appeared in his mind because afte Christmas break was over we still flirted I walk by he asks “are you okay?” *cough CONCERNED eyes contact?? Did we ever starred at anything else? Then I had this chorus competition at Japan came back with a stupid last minute gift Lush. Have it to him found out that he spends his weekends alone (took it as he’s single) called him “alone? Really alone? Forever alone?” Yep I don’t think before I speak next Monday apologized he took it that I have problems (which I do) had this really deep conversation in the room like lights was out it was dark could see lights lining up against us could hear nothing but his breath we were alone he was like so close the closest I’ve ever been to anyone really we’d probably kiss if I hadn’t had the mask on (COViD-19) then my friend interrupted us 5 times I kept telling(yelling) her to let me talk to him just for a little while but the fifth time I got tried which L noticed that so he let me go to lunch he told me to continue it over on homeroom point is people, I once created a scenario where me and L have this really deep conversation where I told him I liked him and all that point is that is what could’ve happened but it didn’t because I didn’t care uo to him on hoemroom which on the next day I was trying to avoid him all day but then while I was in the teachers office sendings orke it’s my friend oop there he was ‘hey uh I missed you yesterday why didn’t you came up?’ ‘Oh I had homework’ ‘oh well you can come up today I’m free’ (spoiler: I didn’t) then when I came to my friend she said that me and L was like ‘the unfinished’ the unfinished was an novella I wrote in grade six about a steamy romance between a teacher and a student which.. moving on I was in a movie club L was the teacher there he opened conjuring I didn’t watched it because I’ve watched sit like three times already and it sing really that scary so I read a book my friend had

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