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#i know ascension in that way requires you to strip all psyche and ego and the freud shit
fickkkin
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2 months
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idk man. i should be humble and whatnot but i have to defend myself
#strrambles
#ok first we can all agree i had noble intentions yeah?
#right then. did i do plenty things wrong? well no
#my only mistakes i argue were pushing my responsibility onto jakob
#and letting narzissenkreuz take over
#first of all carter was fully justified. he was in full agreement. we had appropriate intentions.
#and i regret it? mm maybe. without him we couldnt have continued our research.
#(and here i must say people look back on these actions with a lens from the present. they judge us because they know the archon would
#save the day. but we didnt know that.)
#the foundation of the ordo was once again justified. we were open with our ideas
#we showed them the revelations. which were accurate at that time
#and offered a utilitarian method that would allow us to preserve everyone
#we were open with the idea
#and they joined.
#we knew only how to dissolve and merge
#and were aiming for a solution after the mass dissolutions
#which im sure we could have achieved and as a result reseparated post disaster
#though i guess i cant speak of what ifs here
#but look those were the intentions and none were: hey lets live in a hivemind forever!
#that being said
#my major mistake was dissolving myself
#i know ascension in that way requires you to strip all psyche and ego and the freud shit
#but i overlooked just how unethical narzissenkreuz would be without those things
#and arghghgg. i dont know man. though narz isnt me because i die with my psyche
#i have an obligation over my creation
#and he — or they — messed things up badly.
#and yeah by that dissolution i also indirectly caused my own brother to take such a dark route
#the lengths he went to just to revive me was. frankly very cool of him. in my lens. but also terrible for himself and terrible for everyone
#else. like if id just held off on that dissolving part and let myself figure things out for a bit longer
#if my dissolution even WORKED in the first place
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