#i just wish i wasnt alone right now. i have my stuffed blue whale teddy tho so happy days

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#drugs // #alcohol // #the tldr is i am drunk -> #i am def a lightweight which my friends were joking is cost efficient but i think for someone who has foot injuries and is walking in heels #i handled walking around manhattan p well. like i think i was all good but its hard to tell since im having trouble staying focused rn #i mean no one else was sober either so. i thibk im worrying over nothing #but anyways i bandaged myself up and took some allergy meds and drank water and changed out of my clothes so yay #i feel so warm and fuzzy rn and its almost making me sad #all the aches and tension and pain is just gone. my thoughts feel so quiet. im too fuzzy to mind anything #it makes me sad because im genuinely happy right now. im not in pain. im not in pain! it's all gone! #why cant i be sober and pain free. weh #i just wish i wasnt alone right now. i have my stuffed blue whale teddy tho so happy days #night night #also! sorry for using tumblr like a diary haha #feels like the only way i can convince myself im talking to people and being open witho8t havingbtondeal with the mortefication of actually