#i jsu . i keep gettin jealous of everyone i speak 2 of various things n i Kno we always want wat we don have n it normal 2 an extent but i

[gurorori]

hope i die

#i fuckinwpromise i aint bipolar idk why i go thru waves of insane (happy n energised) 2 insane (kill everyone n i wanna b loved) #i dunno if is the bpd ar this point. i think imjus beyond savinm. why do i feel so alone #i feel so ungrateful i feel like da worst even tho im never one 2 complain i always jus suxk it up #i jsu . i keep gettin jealous of everyone i speak 2 of various things n i Kno we always want wat we don have n it normal 2 an extent but i #jus feel like ill never b happy cuz im always wishin i was someone else imso tired of lookin @ ppl wantin 2 go 2 sleep n wake up as them #tomorrow. imso tired of wishin i was born XYZ or i done ABC different #is literally hauntin me i ll necer b happy ill necer settle 4 wat i have n ill always b a lonely jealous miserable bitch #likei cant ecen lisen 2 a friend say smth nice dat happen sumtimes jm immediately like Ou Okay. never in my book #gawd i wjsh ijus stopped existin the second i postnthis i jusnwanna b q completely different person in a completely different body #i donwannnn nanyy ofnthis anymore #naw mattwr wat name i pick or how i try 2 see myself theres still nawthin of value inso tired #so tieed of always feelin more 4 ppl than they do 4 me too. qlways I Think i shud b isolated from humanity n experimented on #vent #idk theres m more but i jus cant