#i hate that they went along w us dating bc they're too much of a doormat. i hate that they thought abt breaking up w me for years

[detransraichu]

broooo not my ex making posts abt how hard it is to come to terms with being conventionally attractive while having low self-esteem issues and how wild it is to get compliments randomly on their appearance when they go out and how they're worried that their new transmasc boytoy is only into them bc they're hot -_- i'm tired... meanwhile i'm just seen as a gremlin now that i'm not hyperfem... they truly have the biggest issues in the world lol

also they were like "omg turns out i'm not ace i just needed a bf lol" and i'm like yeah. i know. you've been lusting after male characters for years. you were horny as fuck just not for me bc i didn't transition. you only made moves on me when you were bored, lonely or drunk. i always asked if that was the case and you were like no baby it's just your insecurities i don't need you to transition uwu. for 5 years. my trust issues are thru the roof now yayyyyy /dies

#lay text #i'm being mean and petty ugh #my heart kinda hurts but talking w my counsellor abt it helped #it rly helps to have a neutral third party to vent to #also i still think my ex is a good person i don't actually hate them i love them as a friend. but i do hate what they did to me #i hate that they went along w us dating bc they're too much of a doormat. i hate that they thought abt breaking up w me for years #but never told me bc they were worried i wouldn't survive without them financially or emotionally #feels so fucking infantilizing #now i'm so much better off without them despite being broke #that was my first and only real relationship my first time my first everything. i'm so embarrassed wtf i was RIGHT i was right all along #i was right it wasn't just insecurities they straight up never wanted me they wanted future transitioned male-passing me #it was all lies!!! from the get-go!!! meanwhile i did so much romantic bullshit and i was wearing rose colored glasses!!!! #and i was a big dyke. being with a woman who identified as a woman would've made me 2000x happier anyway. we could've just stayed roommates #i'm so bitter guys. i feel so jaded but i'm trying not to be :/ #and now they have so much luck in their love life #and i'm just a lonely gremlin dyke who only attracts polyam/casual girls who only want me on the side #where tf is my love story :'( i've been trying SOOO FUCKING HARD to gain my ex's affection for 5 freaking years i was the most loveydovey g #i deserve a love story i think i've really earned it by now!!!!! #so much love to give #now they have it so easy wtf. feels unfair ngl. i'm happy for them obviously they deserve happiness too. but i am still bitter >:/ #trying to process these feels instead of repressing them for once. i have a tendency to bottle up angst bc i think i'm bad for being mad #but nope those r healthy emotions!!! i can work thru this #it just sucks #if you read all of this bs i give you a cookie 🍪 <3

[greenreadsdresdenfiles]

Dead Beat

Except not actually Dead Beat because it's just a recap of what Green has read so far. Dead Beat pt 0?

Green: god at first I was joking but I just started reading more Dresden Files and Butters is like "Harry I didn't know you were living with a male lover" and Harry just says he's not gay a couple times and makes zero effort to explain that Thomas is his brother?

Orange: well it'd be hell to admit that when the white council freakin hates the vamp

Orange: hate the vamp, slay the vamp

Orange: do not befriend the vamp

Orange: do not hAVE KIDS WITH THE VAMP

Green: oh yeah I guess

Orange: but like

Orange: only half siblings sooooOOoo

Orange: it'd still be verboten due to one of them being a VAMP

Green: mhm

Green: in his defense, white is like the least-evil type of VAMP

Orange:i mean

Orange: you- you do know what goes down in traditional white vamp society right

Green: fucked up shit, yeah

Orange: they have white vamp privilege for sure, what with all the slaves and the eating

Green: but, red vamps are like, automatically evil, right?

Green: and same with black?

Orange: i mean there might be like, one good one

Green: and white ones are just tempted to do evil things

Orange: there are also daywalkers for red vamp society?

Green: daywalkers?

Orange: i think?

Orange: they might be called something else, but they have the same vibe

Green: do you mean the almost-vamps like susan?

Orange: they're like good red vamps who don't fully turn because they refuse to kill

Green: yeah!

Orange: wait

Orange: where are you at

Orange: you know about suzie

Green: the book after he finds out Thomas is his borther, I think

Green: or maybe 2 books after

Orange: but how do y

Orange: d

Orange: did the reveal of her being a failed red vamp come much earlier than i thought....

Orange: hmmmmmmmmmmmm

Green: wayyy earlier, I think

Orange: hmMMmMMmmMMMm

Orange: man i can't say anything can i

Orange: shoot

Orange: gosh darn it

Orange: AND THERE'S SOME OF THE BEST STUFF

Orange: HUAERGH

Orange: like there's this whole thing

Orange: earlier

Green: so, here's what I know about susan

Orange: that was post-harry-and-susan i think

Orange: oh let me know what you know yes

Green: she used to be an investigative reporty for whom harry was really horny, and also perpetually aggravated by

Orange: absolutely

Green: bc she kept showing up to do interview or w/e

Green: and they had a couple dates, I think? Which harry sometimes skipped

Green: due to wizard shit

Orange: gotta love wizard shit

Orange: some magical stuff that

Green: anyways, Susan invited herself along as harry's +1 to a big vamparty

Green: during which a lot of shit went down

Orange: wait he INVITED SUSAN TO THAT

Green: harry got a grave, some wizards who I've just found out are on the white council gave the vamps a sword

Orange: oh she invited herself

Green: or, wait

Green: he invited his paladin friend, and susan SNUCK IN

Orange: MICHAEL

Orange: IS MY FAVORITE BOY

Green: michael is such a good boy

Green: I love his whole "constantly in the right place at the right time" bit

Orange: if only he was gay with harry, like, this harry guy needs to get laid somehow right

Green: lol right

Orange: but michael is way too good for him so idk

Green: which brings us back to the party

Orange: and so the Celibacy Saga continues

Green: the vamps tried to destroy the magic sword, making harry and michael try and stop them, and one thing led to another, and he started a war and killed a bunch of civilians (but only probably) and susan got envampired

Orange: ehehehahaha

Green: a book or two later, susan turns up and she's like "I'm only a half-vampire because I haven't killed anyone; I've been doing investigative reporting on some vamps in south america trying to stop them" and he's like "cool, let's bone" and they have really kinky vampire sex and solve some mysteries together, and then she's like "I can't be around you because I get really horny" or something like that so she leaves forever

Orange: ohhhh

Green: it might've been a slavic country and not south american?

Green: or maybe central american?

Green: who knows

Green: not me

Orange: and that ends the first celibacy saga, but one probably should consider the rule of threes...

Orange: maybe there will be three celibacy sagas

Green: in the book I'm reading now he has a date

Orange: i hope so, harry needs to be perpetually scuffed and frustrated

Orange: gosh darnit

Orange: haarrryyy, stop being around girls for like 10 books for me

Green: but yeah I'm betting his date is a necromancer, or possibly someone who will die before they can bang

Orange: ohohohoho

Orange: who is this man's date

...To be continued!

#dead beat spoilers #dresden files #dresden files spoilers #fujoshi cw #hope you like raw chats #bc these are some RAW CHATS #the story continues