#i feel like an ant trying to comprehend a supermarket

[ssaltlicker]

Im in the club dissociating and having a severe mental breakdown because i thought about space too long

#i literally cannot think of like. simulation or black hole theory for this reason #it just sends me into a spiral of like. literally theres a relatively decent chance that none of this is real #its either that or something came before the big bang but what and when? #if time and space only existed once the big bang happened #then nothing would have ever existed before that? #but energy cant be created nor destroyed #so something cannot just appear from nothing #and religion is just as stumped because when you ask where god came from suddenly they dont wanna talk #the big bang and religion are fundamentally the same principle and coping mechanism #something was created from nothing #and even scientists have almost no possible way to ever conclusively find out what happens #and thats not even accounting for simulation theory #wnd even simulation theory runs into a brick wall #i feel like an ant trying to comprehend a supermarket #or an atom trying to figure out an organism #i dont thjnk the human brain is allowed to know #maybe theres a built in firewall #and death is a whole other story #is consciousness created or is it simply filtered by the brain? #no organ can just create something #it filters something and turns it into something else #but it never makes something magical #like stomach acid is only made from things that can make stomach acid yeah #its not like the stomach can take just blood and make stomach acid #it needs to filter the right ingredients to make its product #and then whats the point if it all? why do things do anything?