#i feed guilty about that ghdsjkfs

[bare1ythere]

Ive spent years reading about and agreeing with lots of positive and kind ways of thinking about mental health but I guess I internalized None of it because now that Im feeling more depressed during a term than I think I ever have I cannot shake off the self-invalidation and and frustration at myself for not being able to do things. Why

#shut up me #Ive been trying to vent post less on here because since most my normal posting goes on the dr sideblog theres less buffer here and #i feed guilty about that ghdsjkfs #But I literally feel so bad I can hardly take it #Ive been stressed in previous years! filled with existential dread and self doubt and whatever! #But usually the grind of schoolwork keeps me going and moving #but now I can hardly keep up #I feel so sick. ugh #and finals are approaching so Of Course this had to happen at the best possible time #I just want to sleep forever