#i dont think she would have helped akemi even if akemi wasn't so rude about it tbh

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sickening to me that despite all the heartache and betrayal mizu still CARES about people like. she didnt HAVE to give that family at the gate the comb, she cared about killing kinuyo, she promised ringo theyd save akemi, AND LIKE. if akemi didnt try to command them to protect her, i really think theyd have tried to!!!! people please pay attention mizu is sooo morally conflicted he wants to care abt ppl SO BAD

I KNNNOOOOWWWWW the reason why Mizu's entire Lone Wolf Asshole thing drives me insane is bc she ISN'T ACTUALLY LIKE THAT!! She wants to be cold and calculated and emotionless because that is the best way to succeed at this unthinkable quest, but she simply can't help but listen to her heart time and time again. The Kinuyo thing is such a great example of what Mizu is like when no one is watching. Sure, she will do the morally corrupt thing, but she will do it in the saddest way possible and it will leave her so shaken up that she tries to make up for it with doing something good that directly dooms her and a bunch of other people to death. Then she will try to make up for THAT by killing a different kid. She finds a half dead Taigen and instead of retreating to save both him and herself, she chooses to drag him to the top of Fowler's castle. There she is faced with the consequences, so she chooses to forget about her vengeance for the moment and save him. She refuses to accept any thanks for it because in her eyes, she was to blame anyway. Round and round it goes. She hates the responsibility of caring but can't survive without it (at some points literally - she would have been long dead if not for her mother or Ringo). She is soooooo tortured it is amazing. At first I thought that her ep 7 conclusion to start trusting people was a bit too fast, but then I realized that her decision wasn't that exactly - it was to make peace with loving others and needing them to survive and to accept her heart as it is, so that one day when her quest is over she can try living for something other than revenge. I love her sm

#eernask #eernanon #eernask talk bes #i dont think she would have helped akemi even if akemi wasn't so rude about it tbh #her entire speech abt akemi's privilege spelled out pretty clearly that she is 1) ignorant and 2) jelly af #and the same goes for madame kaji and her workers. akemi can spit truth abt feminism all she wants but it doesn't negate how lucky she is i #their eyes. class divide baby!!!! love it!!!!!