#i dont feel any other person's joy and pain as viscerally as i feel yours

[nataliekabra]

it's crazy how the more years pass I impossibly somehow keep finding more and more beautiful things about my relationship with my best friend. i just keep finding new layers to how magical it is and how lucky i am to have her. like how we grew up together and influenced everything about each other so much and how we both tried so hard to become better people for each other. and how we both ARE better people because of each other. there's no one single person who helped me improve as much and I'm pretty sure it's the same for her. we can read each other better than anyone can, better than we can understand our own needs sometimes. I caught onto the fact that she wasn't fine before anyone else did and it used to frustrate me so much that no one else could see but what I didn't realize was that she was the only one who realized I was a danger to myself too. even when I myself didn't. and when I was convinced nothing and nobody could get through to me, she figured out how to. even if it was painful as fuck. we both did everything to make sure the other person got better, even when it almost cost us our friendship. I genuinely thought she was out of my life for so long, but hey, we did it. we still have each other and are much better for it. she saved me. and I'll never stop being grateful for the fact that I have her in my life I'll never take it for granted I love her so much it hurts sometimes but it's so worth it. we taught each other how to have healthy, meaningful relationships and man we caused each other so much grief but it was all for the better. I love who I am because of her. I wouldn't be myself without her. she's probably the single biggest influence on the person I am today and god I love her so much

#x am rambles #nini🌺 #bbg if you see this. which hopefully you never will. im sorry i got sappy again #i can't stop. I'll be sappy over you and how much you've influenced me forever #i wouldn't be me without you. i will always love you the most #i dont feel any other person's joy and pain as viscerally as i feel yours #seeing you sad makes me sadder than anything else. talking to you makes the worst day awesome #you're a part of me ok ilysm #ugh this is so cringesapfest sorry #i just love her so much