#i dont actually know if florians feelings are romantic or like. qpr? or smth? brotherly? unclear

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worst part is i cant really pool those emotions into something else, because my primary other "things" are my main ttrpg ocs, and they simply arent doing the things that are called for.

sure you could make a strong case that florian being in love with his best friend captures some of that energy (and thats only if we assume he is actually in romantic love with his best friend, as opposed to like, anything else) and while thats Something its not quiiite the same because the only thing stopping either man is emotional incompetence. i mean yeah sure the setting aint super queer friendly but also who cares. and theres no tragedy yet. someone has to nearly die to get in the right bit.

sure you could say that naielles 20year absence from her fiancee captures some of it, the vibe of being in love and not being able to be together, but like. idk. it just doesnt carry the energy. that might be because theyre engaged? and even after the 20 years her fiancee is clearly still invested in the relationship to a similar level as naielle is, meaning that in the (unlikely) event they are able to reunite there wont be any "problems". ofc itd be complicated and not as easy as either would like, they have a lot of secrets theyve been keeping from the other, but hypothetically it would be a happy reunion and then the two are free to begin their lives together again, no harm or foul. the element of proper tragedy only rears in head if the other is in danger, and the nature of the matter means neither can KNOW that. any revelation of the danger would be delayed, like a letter stuck in the mail. actually exactly that in naielle's case because the only way news ABOUT naielle can get to her fiancee without Naielle herself doing it is a regularly delivered letter, which given the circumstances may never get delivered. in the fiancees case there's a hypothetical route that Naielle learns that happened via pseudo astral projection facilitated by her pact patron (?) but thats only if she and the other person try to connect at the same time, which, hey maybe long enough without word she would just start trying to connect regularly just to see whats up. who knows.

point is its. its not quite right. not quite the right balance of love and tragedy and whatever the fuck.

#florian is the only one with the proper potential because the ttrpg system he's in is a d10 exploding one #so the likelihood that he or zeke die or are mortally wounded is an ever present damoclesian sword #i dont actually know if florians feelings are romantic or like. qpr? or smth? brotherly? unclear #but i suppose within a context i can imagine him saying 'i love you' and not necessarily deciding what form he means #because i think its a statement thats true no matter what angle hes coming from. its up to zeke to interpret that #however florian only has POTENTIAL. things are complicated by the play situation #alas. not much we can do #im just doing naielle-related art and vibing this is just the words portion of emotions