#i don't know what to do bc i've even been kinda uncomfy on dates lately but. i'd also feel guilty leaving them because they mean a lot to m

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i'm gonna vent in the tags bc i don't have a therapist lol

#i think i've finally figured out my identity #or at least something i'm comfortable with identifying as for now #i'm aroace #i'm really uncomfortable with any kind of affection irl #and i'm okay with that but it's kind of a problem because. i'm in a relationship right now. #and part of me wants to break up with them because they deserve someone that can actually give them what they want #they're very touch starved and i don't like touch. it really doesn't go well together #it feels forced on my end when i act lovey with them #i'm really conflicted abt this because i do care about them #and they really want a future with me #they've already talked about marriage and moving in and i'm like 🧍‍♀️ uhh we're kinda young #i don't know what to do bc i've even been kinda uncomfy on dates lately but. i'd also feel guilty leaving them because they mean a lot to m #i've been thinking about this for a month ugh #i wanna unalive myself. they deserve better. everyone that cares about me deserves better. i can't give people what they want #self hate time babes #also yall dont have to help me or give me attention about this. i'm just getting it off of my chest #vent #negative #personal #i'll delete this in a bit #but yeah don't give me advice or anything i'm just simply screaming into the void w this