#i don’t even LIKE evilmario

[leonardalphachurch]

hello i just wanted to let you know i had an extremely vivid dream last night that chi came out as the person behind evilmario666 and i woke up completely convinced this was true and went about my morning like wow I cant believe ive been in the presence of a legend and then when I went to look at it again i learned that i had in fact made it all up so anyways-

HELLO???

#THIS is what A was denying me front for??? #i don’t even LIKE evilmario #i would be so much fucking funnier than that #how dare you. fuck your subconscious i’m hilarious and a joy to be around #also i’m like. a year old #did someone else in the system run the blog before i existed or was i just older in your dream #–chi

[vpyre]

Wow I am in a mental state rn. That’s for sure.

I feel insane. Nothing is real. Am I cringe? What is cringe? What’s irony and what’s legitimacy? I’m not feeling negative but these emotions certainly aren’t positive. I think evilmario’s blog has destroyed my exhausted, autistic-ass brain lmao and I can now no longer differentiate between ironic cringe and real cringe and not cringe and I dunno if I’M cringe or if that even matters or what defines cringe and now I feel like life is all some big scam and nothing fucking matters and we all make big deals about things to hide our crushing lack of certainty and fear of the unknown and the knowledge that we’re just piddly little dots in the grand scheme of things and our daily activities don’t actually matter but we make them matter more than they should which makes life a living fucking hell because we have thes stupid fucking rules and needs and constructs but maybe things do matter but how could they when things are so mutable and inconsistent and attitudes and nuances change so frequently and suddenly and completely wow is this what derealization feels likeAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#this is kind of a breakdown?? #musings on life is more like it #I’m not sad or any th ing #just in a state #off my rocker #derealized and nihilistic and maybe manic?? definitely tired tho lol #vpyre’s verbosity

[evilmario666]

Hey, evilmario, i accidentally started treating you and all of t=your past lives like a tumblr funnyman akin to Pukicho, can you give me your most realistic and descriptive insult/threat to remind me that im not dealing with a funnyman like them?

I'm not even of this realm, why would I care about being a "funnyman". I don't even know what the hell that is. I'm an IBS warrior. I'm having a flareup right now. It's the anniversary, my father went missing 20 years ago. And you send me this. I'd say you probably have a Hazbin Hotel past life but that's too far and too mean. Sorry I don't like being mean

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